End of October

 I received a text from a friend to go look on facebook.  I did and then I had to ask where to look.  A friend from High School had passed away from colon cancer.  She and I were not friends in High School but were as adults.  It is horribly sad.  I feel so sad for her family.  Makes you really realize that you don't know from one day to the next what will happen.  Sometime in the next few days the arrangements will be made.  Since it is covid, I will not plan on attending so she can have more of her family attend.  With covid, you have to think of these things now.  

November is just around the corner and with that is the election that I cannot wait to be over.  The absolute hatred that is going on is amazing to me.  What happened to human kindness?  Respecting each other's opinion?  Not anymore.  Now it is more of a you are wrong and I will hate you.  Media of course is lapping this up.  The politicians aren't helping either.  It feels so different from the last two presidential elections.  This is more out of control.  People are just out of control.  It is so unbelievable to me.  I can't wait for it to end.

Tuesday I start the first of the wrappings for the lymphedema on my legs.  We are starting with the right calf.  It is huge.  Simply huge.  I wore the hideous shoes yesterday and will wear them again today.  They are very heavy.  very very heavy.  When I walked upstairs, my hips, lower back, and left knee hurt.  I am skeptical about this now.  I will give it a go though.  I won't know unless I give it a good go.  The huge box will come with me.  She said to use my walker so I will.  

Tomorrow I get my flu shot.  I get it every year.  I have for many years now.  I get it at 9;30 am.  yup.  Nice and early.  I will so come home and sleep.  I also have a rheumatologist appointment at 1:30.  They have moved so I will need to plug in the address to waze to get directions.  I do hope she is on time more than she used to be.  At one time she was, then she wasn't.  

I bought Peony winter socks.  She wouldn't let me put them on her.  She kept pulling her cute little paw away.  She was basically saying no no no.  A thousand times no!!!!  She loves going on walks and has lost a lot of the excess weight so this would make it easier for her to walk when it is colder out.  No, not my dog, she says no.  I will not wear them.  Too bad human!!!!!

 In some ways this year has been faster than last year, in other ways it is crawling by.  COVID still has us by the neck.  Some of us are not allowed in the stores yet.  I am on of them.  I am very high risk with my chronic stuff going on.  I don't mind, if I need music, I just call Annie at her store and she orders it,  When it comes in, she brings it out to me.  It works.  I have most of my students.  I really only lost one and she was brand new to begin anyway.  I do enjoy teaching online.  I love seeing the kids too.  Right now all but 6 are online.  

Fall has arrived.  The temps were beautiful for about a week.  It's a little too chilly right now, mainly because it is raining out,  Always feels cooler when it rains.

Christmas Recital will be very different this year.  I am not sure how this will happen but B says it will////////////////////!  We are going to put on a Zoom Recital this year.

Competition will also be virtual.  New ways to do the old things.  I am teaching through the internet.  Before COVID, who would have thought??  Not me?  I was told several years also that I should look into this teaching online idea.  ICOVID, maybe manners, how important family is.  I don't know.  I shall try to look anything new right in the eye and with a very timid and very scared voice ask how do I do this:?  

Covid 19 Musings

We have been in quarantine for four months. Our State has opened up some. Not everything just some.  I am teaching online. That is a huge change for me. I now have four students who have come back to in person lessons but the majority are online still and will be for a while.  I was luckier than most in that I didn't totally lose my income.  

For the past few months I have been living out a dream.  I have recently been in contact with my sister.  It is a beautiful word. She lives across the ocean from me.  She is from my dad's first marriage and me and my brothers are from the second marriage.  We have had lovely chat.on messenger.  It is so nice to speak with her.  I look forward to many more.

My left knee has been in a fibro flare from hell for several days now.  I have tried cbd cream. It has helped some.  I can't put it on with Peony here as she licks it off.  Yes, it is like, really I need that more than you do.  I will wait until she goes to bed.  On another health front, I will be getting a gastric pacemaker.  I have gastroparisis.  My stomach doesn't digest like it is supposed to.  It takes a really long time to empty.  This will improve this function.  I am waiting on a date for the consoltation.  I hope to.hear from the.hospital soon.

That is about it.  I will leave you with a picture of the adorable one.  Peony

Night before my birthday musings

Tomorrow is 52nd birthday.  It seems weird to me to be this old.  I don't feel different except physically where everything is falling apart. It is a different birthday as we are all quarantined. We can go to get grocies, meds, and doctors.  That is about it.  All my lessons are online.  My students and I often went to get ice cream for my birthday.  I believe we will have cake.  Bill said he will see what he can do.  We are all getting alone for all six of us being home. 

My pain hasn't been horribly bad not has my nausea.  I have been going to a chiropractor.  I have finally found one that didn't flinch when I told him about the hardware attached to my spine. At the first evaluation, he checked my neck and thinks that my daily headache that I have had for 17years is from my neck issue.  He has been working on my neck and adjusting it.  I am pleased with the results.  It hasn't helped the head much but if has helped some of the back issues.

I have, unfortunately, added a new diagnose, cyclical vomiting syndrome.   I now take two anti nausea meds.  One is there times a day and yes, I have to wake up in the middle of the night to take.  The other is twice a day. Despite this new issue, I have in the last year gained 35 pounds of the 70 I had lost.  Party of it was a med.  If you are on protonix for a lo g time you can gain weight, however the majority is due to cookies and bad food choices.  I have improved upon that now.

Peony is doing so good as usual.  She is looking super cute.  I never knew I could love a dog so much. First there was Maisy and now there is Peony.

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Reading a good book

I love to read. It took a long time to learn how and once I did, I never stopped. One of my favorite authors is Kay Bratt.  She writes simply delish books.  Every one I have read has been wonderful.  The newest one is called True to Me.  It is a journey of self discovery for the main character, Quinn.  She goes to find out about her mother and discovers herself along the way  I found it a magical journey of hope.  It was beautiful from beginning to end.  I wish I had the words to describe exactly how I felt reading it.  With fibro, like so many of us, it is so hard to concentrate. I did not have this issue with this book. I know, can you imagine??  Being able to focus on a book??  It was that captivating.

A new kindle

I have a nook for reading. It is the nook color.  I just love it.  I now have a kindle fire seven.  I can do so much on it. It is like a computer to me.  I am quite happy with it. 

I went to see the Ellers this past week.  I do so enjoy my time there with the kids.  Hayden had his birthday on Monday. He is now 15.  They grow so fast.  When I came home it appeared that I didn't get the explosive tummy like I have gotten every single time I spend more than a day there.  However, I got a mild case Thursday night.   I was most unhappy.  At least this time was mild. 

My cousin, Danyelle, is getting married in March.  I am so happy for her.  She is very nice.  She is the one I am giving the family locket to.  She is very sentimental so I am glad.  I don't think it is worth much money but it is from my mom who got it from her grandmother who got it from her brother in her 16th birthday.  There are a multitude of reasons why she is getting it over others.  I won't go through that here.

Pairwise these last few weeks have sucks.  My lower back especially.  I don't know what is up but it can disappear any time now.  If I am mindful of how much I stand and where I sit, it isn't so bad.  If I am not well, let's just say I am reminded to pay more attention.

I have been trying something new for anxiety.  Hypnotherapy. My friend is a therapist.   I have had one session.  She recorded a session for me to listen to. I have listened to it three times already.  I slept better last night  than I have in a long time.  I think maybe it will help.  I will keep you posted.

More Peony cuteness.

A Day From Hell

So today sucked, really bad.  I had a test on Monday to see if this flap worked during the digestive cycle. Whatever it is they gave me has caused things from immediate tummy cramps which were extremely painful to this morning lovely gift of explosive diarrhea.  Yes. The joys in life. I will say I believe it is now over but I must be cautious because I don’t want a repeat.  The worse part is that the two lessons I had were actually absences instead of reschedules.  Nothing I can do about though.  Just continue on with the week.

My car is in for repair.  The front brakes and rotors are being fixed as well as the left wheel bearing and left tie rod.  I hope it is done tomorrow so that I have it back before Friday.  I actually didn’t mind not having it because I was sick so I wouldn’t have gone anywhere anyhow!!!  

I have been having issues with my right knee lately.  I am not sure why but if I don’t put cream on it I can’t sleep because of the pain.  Sometimes I just hate my body.  When I am ready to go to sleep and the knee starts in, that is one time I do.


I accidentally stepped on Peony’s paw tonight.  I didn’t mean too.  I picked her up to say sorry and she growled at me.  I understand I stepped on her.   My poor puppy.  We just celebrated her birthday.  She is now six.  Since we don’t really know when her birthday is we picked the Canadian Thanksgiving Day to celebrate.  I wanted to get her a boatload of toys but I can’t right now.  Eventually I will be able too.  Just not right now.

A Friday Night

It is Friday night and I am just relaxing in my chair in my room.  Peony is lying next to my sleeping. She is such a good little doggie.  I love her so much.  She calms my anxiety which can be so overwhelming some days.  I have tried to explain it to my family but they don’t get it.  In some ways that is good in others that is bad. My anxiety has improved in some things. I did panic this past week though.  We got a letter from the township saying that the shingles need to be picked up from the yard.  I thought our roof, which was completely redone in 2008, was falling apart. I called a roof company that was advertising on Facebook.  I set an appointment for today at five.  I was very anxious about this because I don’t know how I would pay this off.  So Bill so the letter and told me that he would put the packaged up shingles in the shed.  I asked if they were from our roof.  He said no.  They are for the shed we are going to build in the spring.  I was like so relieved.  I cancelled the appointment.  I talked to the other Heather (yes there are two of us with the same name in the house) and she said that next time just ask Bill first.  I said I would.  So our roof is doing really good so I am happy.  Now I do know that our furnace will probably be the next big thing to deal with.  Anyway. I am not thinking about that one right now.

It is supposed to be a bit chilly here tomorrow.  I have warm clothes now in the closet so I am ready.  Rose and I changed out all the summer stuff to fall and winter.  I have a few short sleeve tops incase it warms up a bit but mostly it is longer sleeves.

I am hoping to go and see my aunt next weekend.  I am not sure but we may possibly see the Downton Abbey movie.  I have seen it but she loves the series so I would love to see the movie with her.  We haven’t celebrated her birthday yet.  We just haven’t had our schedules lined up to celebrate or when we do, I don’t have the money to get there.  I think she will really like it.  Apparently no one expected it to be such a hit movie. They are making a sequel. I am glad.  I did so enjoy the series and the movie.  It was so fun to go with Jennie and Kathy.  I just know it takes days to recover from such an outing.  

My nausea hasn’t lessen yet.  Even with the latest additional med.  so I take zolfran every eight hours like clockwork.  Then I take this other stuff twice a day.  Generally at five and 11 pm.  In between the zolfran hours.  I have a test Monday to see what may be causing this.  So far the doctor is just saying it is cyclical vomiting syndrome.  She wants to see if there is something not working right since my gallbladder has been taken out.  It happens sometimes.  The scan is later in the evening.  Can’t eat or drink after 2pm.  I can live with that.   It will mess up some meds but not much I can do about that.  I will bring them with me to take as soon as possible.   I just want to not feel so nauseous all the time. That would be beautiful.

I have been trying to read a lot.  Sometimes I can sometimes I can’t. It depends on the pain level for what kind of concentration and focus I have for the day.  Sometimes, I am lucky I can focus on teaching the one student I have for that day.  If I can’t I have to reschedule them.  Fortunately I have very flexible students. They also know I can be flexible back. I wanted to go back teaching full time this fall. Yeah. After having three lessons in a row, I couldn’t focus or concentrate on anything and I had a really bad headache the days I tried to teach more.   I guess that is not happening anytime soon. It bums me out. I used to be able to teach 60 students in one week.  Now I have 10 and it is all I can handle.  It makes me really sad sometimes.  Other times it doesn’t bother me.  Because I really wanted to go back full time, it is bothering me that I can’t.  I think I am stuck in a rut and need to figure out how to get out.

A Resting Sunday

it has been a slow fall as far as lessons this year. I have 12 students so I am happy for that.  I have room for about three more then that is it.  Everything will be full for me at that point.  Christmas music is being pulled out at this time for students as we have a Christmas recital every year.  Other than that, no new news on the teaching front.

I got to see Kathy very briefly yesterday and three of her children.  I was happy to see them.  Matthew, her oldest came to my car to get the guitar books I told him he could have, the girls, wanted to see Peony as I brought her with me, and I needed to have some paperwork signed by Kathy.  I have updated my power of attorney and patient advocate papers as well as my will. So she signed the two that she needed to sign. She was visiting her mom so I met her there.  It is about 45 minutes away.  I didn’t mind the drive at all.  Much stress was lifted because those papers were signed.  It was so needed.   I am now covered incase something happens to me.  I am rather pleased with myself that I am.   On the plus side of this, I did get to speak to Kathy and her children!!!!!

Not much going on today.  I watch the latest episode of NCIS New Orleans. It was good.  I also watched another episode of law and order Los Angeles.  I don’t care for it.  I will stick with the shows I have.  Tonight the NCIS LA is on so I can watch that tomorrow on cbs.  The rest of tonight I am just resting.  I have two lessons tomorrow.  One is a make up from Saturday and the other is a regular Monday lesson.  I may potentially have another, it depends on his work schedule   We have it scheduled but sometimes we need to reschedule for another day. Anyways, C is here for the weekend.  I have enjoyed her company so much.  I got some nice quality time with her yesterday. She is with friends today.  She is just amazing.  A seemed to really like having her help him with his geometry homework.   I thought it was cool.

That’s all for now!!!!!

Downton Abbey Evnt

Saturday was a magical day from start to finish.  I had three lessons. Then my very best friend, Kathy came to see me!!!!  We were going to dinner and a movie during this visit!!!!  Our friend, Jenn was joining us!!!!  I was so looking forward to this for so long!!!   Jenn was coming in from about an hour away so we weren’t sure when exactly she would arrive.  We planned dinner early enough so we wouldn’t hit the dinner rush.  It was a good call. About 10 minutes after we sat down, Jenn arrived!!!!  We ordered and the visiting commenced!!!!!  We talked about everything, just everything!!!!  I was so excited and happy about this day. Then we moved on to the final event of the night!!! The movie!!!!!  Kathy had told me she wanted to see the Downton Abbey movie with me in about June.  I had seen a few episodes but not anything dedicated to it.  I said I would look at the first few to see if I would like it.  She kept telling me I would love it.  I watch the first two and was intrigued. The next thing I knew I finished season one!!!!  Whoa!!!!  Then two and so on!!!!  I simply loved it!!!!!!   I was prepared to see the movie.  When I asked Jenn if she was interested in seeing the movie with me she said she hadn’t seen any of the episodes. As far as I knew it was okay because it would be a stand alone movie.  She is now thinking of watching the entire series.  We have a concert ion our hands.

Today, Kathy and I went to Tim Horton’s for Brunch and chatted some more.  She left to go to her mom’s house.  It is on the way home for her so I am pleased that she went to visit her mom also. It was a beautiful, exhausting weekend.  I napped for about four hours today. I will be okay for sleeping tonight.  I am just so thrilled that it went well.  I did have a bad tummy yesterday but it was under control and wasn’t super bad like the previous week.  I am so glad about that.  Overall, this was worth the wait. It was worth the exhaustion and definitely worth the few days it will take to to recover.