As usual, on Friday, we were at the Muglia's for sewing.  It is so much fun.  Natalie finished her skirt today, Lydia is almost done.  Hers was a little more complicated than her sisters.  Hannah finished last week.  Lydia will finish next week.

We have made a decision!!!!!!!  Don't faint or pass out.  I spoke with mom on my worries about moving to Windsor, Ontario.  I told her about the state of their health care.  There are so many waits for procedures and nursing home care.  Mom will need one much sooner than she knows, but she knows eventually she will need it.  There is a 2 year wait to get into one.  Yup, that's two years.  At the rate her memory is going, she may need one in a year.  She may not.  Depends on the memory loss.  So far she has control over her body which is good.  Anyways, the bottom line, she doesn't want to move.  We are going to work on getting a few more students so that we will have enough to stay in our house.  I am already filing for bankruptcy (because of the store, I have to) so I am not worried about that.  I pay for my health insurance so I have some.  I will get medicare in a year and a half, so I will get that in the future.  I feel so much better about nixing the move.  I didn't really think it was a great idea, I understand why she wanted to move, most of our family is over in Windsor, London, and other areas of Ontario.  I told her we would just visit more often.  She agreed.

Pain level is medium today.  I am happy about that.  It wasn't too bad during the sewing class.  I just love teaching!  I hope to get about 8 new students for the fall, that would supplement the disability enough for us to stay in our house.  Things are looking up for the Paxton house!

I hope this finds you doing well, and having a good day!  We are planning a nightly (well, an evening) scooter/walk.  Mom is doing well today.

I had to go and get my biweekly blood test today.  The nurse did it in one shot this time!  Yeah!  Only 1 poke.  I get excited over one poke.  Like all Fibro people, it hurts to get a blood test done.  It isn't the needle that hurts as much as the tourniquet.  That is the one that hurts.  

I met with a new student this afternoon.  Her name is Grace and she is 15.  Seems very nice and serious about lessons.  She is going to take voice and piano!  I am trying something new, both lessons in 45 minutes instead of an hour.  We will try.  I am sure with her help, we will work it out.  Mom came with us (I can't leave her alone anymore)  As usual, Mom was quiet during the interviewish meeting.  Grace will start in September when she starts school.  She is homeschooled.  I hope to get a few more and then I will be able to breathe a sigh of relief.

the weather is good today, not to hot, not to cold and it doesn't look like rain!  My arm is not as sore as Monday, but because that is the only arm they can get blood from me, it hurts more than yesterday.  My chest is a bit sore today too.  Silly fibro, if only it would go away.  I am kinda tired too because I had to get up earlier than usual.  I can't wait until tomorrow when I see the Muglia girls for sewing.  Thursdays are so boring as there are no students or anything fun to do.  At least, I met with a new student which brightened the day.  Now we are bored over here.  I think we take a scooter to get a lottery ticket.  That will liven us up.  Nothing like fresh air, as Mom would say!

Have a great afternoon and evening.

I went to the tummy doctor today.  She wants me to come in monthly because of the medicine I take.  I can't afford to go monthly.  I also have not had any problem with the medicine.  It works just fine with me.  She said that they would work with me on this.  The next appointment was made for October, I hope it stays that way.  I have to pay for doctor visits because my insurance doesn't cover them.  When I got my insurance I was healthy and well, I didn't think it was a big deal.  Of course, they would have only covered one a year anyway.  It raised the price of insurance monthly to an amount I couldn't afford.  

Pain level is pretty medium.  It isn't to high like yesterday, but not low like Monday.  We didn't get to go and exercise yesterday because my arm was too sore.  It is too sore for today too.  Hopefully tomorrow!  I can only hope.

Tilley is checking into how the nursing homes work in Canada.  Mom still wants to move and I really don't.  I think I can hold her off for a while.  She is beginning to forget more now.  She no longer knows which one is our house when we go out.  She asks me each time we go out.  Last night she asked me which bed is hers.  I think I am being hopeful when I say I have a year left with her.  I may only have months.  When she gets that bad, I will have to put her in a home and I don't want to.  I want her with me, except I know that I can't take good care of her when she needs 24 hour care.

It looks rainy out now, I hope it does.  it will fit my mood.

Have a great afternoon.

It is hot here today.  Possible showers too, smells like it.  I don't mind the rain if it brings down the humidity.  Pain level is very high right now.  I have two students later today, so I am excited about that.  I need to get some new songs for Charlie, Frank usually brings new music to his lesson so I don't really worry about him and music.  I loved the music in Harry Potter number 6, so I am going to get that book soon.  Probably next month when my disability check comes in.  I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow with my stomach doctor.  However, I haven't figured out how to pay for the appointment, we are short on cash this month.  I didn't know we would be so short so fast.  I thought I kept better track, but apparently I didn't.  I did make a teaching deposit, so that will help.  Next week I will have one less student, he will be on vacation.  I hope he has a great trip.  He and his wife are the nicest people ever.  One of my girls changed her day next week only so she wouldn't miss a lesson, I'd rather make up a lesson than miss one!  Also, I had a new call for 2, yes, 2 new lessons!  So things are looking up.  I am just still nervous.  I hope it passes soon.

I hope your having a better day than me!!  Have a great afternoon.

I had three students today.  Originally, it was supposed to be 2, but Rachel called and wanted a lesson, so of course, I added her!!!  She usually is gone for the summer.  She will be back in 3 weeks for regularly scheduled lessons, so I am grateful for that.  We had a nice dinner at Olive Garden, Mom and I.  She is doing alright today, not much in the tears today.  Thank God for that!  I have a hard time dealing with her tears when she is teary.  Pain level isn't too bad either.  Nice day outside.

A funny thing happened to me last night, I was sleeping (sort of) and I felt something run across my ankle.  I flew out of bed so fast it was unbelievable and flipped on the light.  I'm searching the room for a furry critter (we don't have any pets in the house - so you know I mean a mouse) I didn't find one.  I looked downstairs and didn't see one either.  I haven't seen any signs of a mouse in the house, so I figured it must have been my sheet or something like that.  (Or I am hoping anyway.)  So I lay back down.  I couldn't sleep, all I could think about were mice!  So I raced (as fast as I can - which is pretty slow!) to the bathroom for some of my fibro spray.  It has mint in it and mice don't like mint.  We used it to get rid of the mouse we had a few years ago and it worked.  so after I sprayed I could go back to sleep.  Trouble was, I wasn't tired anymore!  So I lay there for a few hours before I fell back asleep.  I have since double checked the house, and no signs of a mouse anywhere!  I hope I sleep tonight.

Have a great day!

We had a great day today with the Muglia girls.  I teach them sewing on Fridays.  It is a lot of fun.  Today, Hannah finished her first skirt.  She was very happy about it.  Now she wants to make a top to go with it.  Natalie is almost done and so is Lydia.  Both should be finished next Friday.  Then we will start working on tops after we go and pick out the material.  First of course, is finishing this project.  Mom likes watching them.  She helped Natalie with taking out stitches.  Nothing like learning and taking out stitches!  

Pain level wasn't too bad today, especially when I was sewing (takes my mind off the pain).  My arm is doing much better today than yesterday.  I haven't had to take as many pain pills today so I am happy about that.

I am feeling much better today overall in general.  I don't feel so out in left field right now.  I am not sure if it is because we had something to do today, or it is just a better day.  We are going for a scooter after Mom finishes her ice cream.  She eats ice cream everyday and loves it.  She also stays very thin too.  I have a hard time keeping weight on her, I don't have that problem, I can't get it off!  Between the two of us we do okay though.  She is able to exercise every day by herself, she comes in and tells me she is going downstairs.  Thank God she doesn't need help, getting up early is hard for me.  I am not a morning person.  

I hope this finds everyone doing well and enjoying their day!

It was rather boring here today.  We went to our usual, TH, and then back home.  Grocery shopped yesterday.  It was a small shopping, not the usual big one.  I am trying to shop more often so we don't spend or waste so much.  We went to ice cream after dinner.  I had to get out of the house.  I was going a little crazy.  I know something will happen this summer, I am not saying it is a bad thing that will happen, but right now I feel paralyzed and can't make a decision.  I am not sure why.  It is hard to explain.  I tried to explain it to mom, I know she won't remember, probably, but it helped to explain my craziness earlier today.  She is very understanding.  I know she doesn't remember much, but she is able to understand at the time we talk about things and that helps.  This being in charge of the family is difficult, I often feel out at sea.  Does everyone feel like that?  It would help me to know that I am not alone at this stuff.  Sometimes I wish I had a crystal ball, but then do we really want to know the future?  Anyway, it is finally nicer out so we are going to go for a scooter, I think.

Have a great evening and enjoy the summer.

I had a really bad head ache last night.  One of my doozies.  At least it finally started to go back to the normal head ache about 7 am this morning.  Then, of course, my arm had to start hurting more to balance out the head.  Can't win, can I?  Well, it could be worse.  I just have this feeling that this is the last summer with mom.  It's pushing my luck to think she will have this much memory next year.  Richard and family and Andrew are missing so much, this could be it for her.  Oh, her body is healthy and she will probably live longer, but her memory won't be there.  That is the sad part.  Fortunately, she has more good days than bad.  But I know more bad ones are coming.  I guess that partly why I am not sure we should move.  I know we will eventually lose the house because once the interest rates go up, we will be out of here.  But for now, should I try to hang on to the house until she doesn't know much?  I don't know what to do about all this.  Should we try to move in with Richard?  I don't want to go to Canada because we won't get the health care we get here.  Yes, it is free, however, there are so many problems with getting the health care that I don't think we should chance it.  What if I can't get her a doctor or me?  I have chronic health issues that aren't going to go away for a long time, until there is a cure.  Also, I have disability here, not over there.  I don't know if it can be transferred or not.  My cousin Tillie is checking into it.  She is checking into doctors and disability for me.  She thinks we should move to Windsor because much of our family is over there.  We don't see many of them now, will we see them there?  Too many questions unanswered.  I pray about this often, no answer yet.  I am still praying.

I hope you have a great day!  We heading for a scooter later today after my two wonderful students!

It is a nice and cool day today.  I love this weather (unless of course it is raining, then I hate that) but it only rained a little bit today and I was inside Tim Horton's.  My favorite place.  Mom is doing well today, we met up with our friend Donna and her granddaughter, Samantha.  She is a nice kid, 16 years old.  Not snotty at all, a little cheeky at times, but not a snot.  Most of the kids I know are nice kids, I only hear about the bratty ones.  I do have one who can be a brat, but fortunately she isn't around me.  She is rather nice around me.  Of course, I am not her sister, which is who she is bratty around.  It must be a sister thing (I only have brothers!).  

My arm is in less pain today thanks to the weather and good pain killers.  Not much going on, I had 2 students today.  One is rather new, she is very excited about voice lessons.  I love that kind of a student.  She got all but one of her new books, because the store was out of it, the ordered so she will have it next week.  We started her Italian art song.  She did very well.  It does help when a student is already learning another romantic language.  My other student, an adult, is doing very well on the piano too.  I have two students tomorrow too.  Both are boys and are very interested in music.  One plays piano and the other tenor saxophone.  Both are in high school now.  The pianist is a freshman and the tenor sax is a sophomore.

I hope we can go for a walk tonight.  My scooter is all charged up and sort of ready to go.  I have to take it out of the trunk of the car, but once we get her out and put back together, she will be ready.

Have a great evening!  I hope this finds you doing well!

It's Saturday!  I used to be so excited about Saturdays, now it is just another day.  Tomorrow, on Sunday, we are going to the greenfield village.  We haven't been there in years.  I think the last time I was there was the week before Kathy got married and that was eons ago.  About 14 years I think.  I never remember these type things.  It is chilly out today, but I am glad about it.  If I had a choice between this and the 90 degree heat with high humidity, I would take this.  Today is supposed to break records of how cold it is in July!  We shall see.  Possible rain today also.  That part I mind.  I don't really like the rain.  It makes me ache more.

Arm is better so far this morning.  I am waiting for one student.  The other is in Ann Arbor for the weekend.  I hope she is having fun at the fair.  I have never been to the Ann Arbor art fair.  It is supposed to be fabulous!  Anyways, probably will see a flick today, not sure what one since we have seen so many this summer, but Mom needs to get out of the house whenever possible.  We do have to make a list of things we need to organize the house better.  It would be easier for me if she wasn't home, but that is not possible.

have a great day!

Mom is having a slightly rough day.  She is depressed and bored.  Not a very good combination.  I think the memory thing is really starting to get to her again.  It does this every now and again.  I don't know how to fix this one.  She was crying earlier this morning.  She seems fine now, but it will creep up again.  I wish I knew what to do.  I try to keep her busy, but she can't remember how to do so much that that upsets her.  Either way, she is upset and I can't take it.  We are working on downsizing our stuff.  I hope this helps, we have so much crap that it is driving us both nuts.  You can't walk into her room without tripping over something, and my room isn't much better.  Forget about the family room, that is the pits.  I call it the dungeon.  It fits it to a "T".

We finagled something to charge the scooter.  It is at one end of the garage with the extension cord going to the inside garage door to be plugged in in the kitchen.  It is working.  We have no electricity in the garage.  I don't have the money to find out why.  We will just leave it that way for now.

Mom has started the list of things for us to do to fix up the house.  It is still empty.  I better go and help her fill it out!  Later we will be taking a scooter (as soon as it is done being charged).  I hope you have a good day!