Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Wednesday 12-7

I have a couple lessons tonight that I am looking forward too.  I have Natalie and Beth.  I hope Beth is feeling much better because last week she was really sick so I do hope she is much better.  We are working on the music she needs for the musical she is in, Jekyll and Hyde.  Beth has come so far in her voice since she began lessons last spring.  I won't see her at all in January, but I hope she is back in February.  Natalie is also a voice student.  She is doing very well too.

I really slept in today.  I was so exhausted from not sleeping too well the night before that I slept a lot last night.  I did my usual waking up a lot, but that was normal.  I am not too surprised that I slept in as much as i did, but a little bit surprised.  I rescheduled my doctor's appointment for the blood test to Friday.  I am not sure what I was thinking, but I am glad that I did as I would have slept through the whole thing and that would have been bad.

On the radio, the host was talking to some guests about getting through the holidays when you are in a rough spot.  It made me think of last Christmas when I think I was a total zombie through the whole thing.  I don't remember too much about the season except that I slept a lot and cried a lot.  In some ways I am sadder this year at times because the shock has worn off and other times I am okay.  I think I am doing pretty well but I still have my rough spots and days.  It is hard to be happy all the time, I think, whether or not you are in mourning because things happen.  They were talking about all sorts of hardships, death, divorce, financial, and things like that.  I am thankful to be living in a house and the fact i am not homeless.  I was very worried about that last year.  I really was because when Momma passed away I didn't have very many students and my disability wouldn't cover all the bills.  Now, I am not worried at all.  I work part-time and I have my disability, which pays the bills.  I like the lessons I have, I know there is no way I could work full time right now, in the future, maybe, but not right now, today.  I have enough to keep busy but also not too many where I can't rest when I need too and resting is very important.  I am thankful that a few weeks ago when I felt a crash and burn beginning to happen (also known as a flare) that I rested enough to not go into it.  I do wish Mom was here with me.  I will wish that for the rest of my life.  I miss her.  I miss both the woman she was without Alzheimer's and the woman she became with Alzheimer's.  she was so scared all the time and so dependent on me.  It was nice to feel important to someone.  I knew she needed me and once I got over myself, I didn't mind.  Yes, when she first was diagnosed I was a bit resentful that she wanted to be with me all the time, however, that didn't last too long because she needed me.  As she got sicker, I just took over more duties for her that 's all.  At first, when she was first diagnosed, I thought she would need a nursing home and I did look into them.  They are very expensive and I don't see how the care was any better (in our case, other people have no choice, they need that type of care) than what I was doing.  She didn't need the 24/7 care that many people needed so I was very lucky.  I was able to keep her home and she liked being at home.  Yes, at times it was scary.  There are times now that I am scared but I don't think the fear is all consuming like it was last year at this time.  I was so afraid all the time last year for months after Mom went to Heaven.  I thought I would end up homeless and starving.  There were year long or more waiting lists for housing.  I had food stamps for a bit, but not anymore, I don't need them now.  That was helpful.  I no longer have Medicaid either, just Medicare and this works for me.  I don't particularly think I am lonely, except for Mom, I see my friends, family, students quite frequently.  I meet up with various friends at different times of the month.  I thought I would be alone for the Holidays, I am not.  I went to Jennie's Mom's house with her and her family for Thanksgiving, and will spend Christmas with Kathy and her family same with most likely Easter or I will have Easter here.

My hips are pretty sore today for some reason.  Every so often I get a flare in them and today seems to be the day.  Silly hips, don't they know they aren't supposed to hurt?  I had a bad headache this morning, but now it is the regular headache so I will be fine for lessons.  I have been very lucky these last few years because rare have I had to cancel a lesson due to illness on my part.  My lessons are scheduled so nicely that I can rest when I need to and I don't have too many in one day.  I have had several colds over the last year but none so bad I had to cancel and on the worst days, I had no lessons or just one.  I have been really blessed that way.  Even my flares have not caused me to cancel!  I hope the New Year is the same way.

I do hope you are having a good day and enjoying the Christmas Season.  I will decorate this weekend a bit.  I plan to go all out next year but not this year.  This year, like last year, will be only a little decorating.  I hope it doesn't snow until Christmas Eve! (After, of course, I get home for the evening!)

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Tuesday! 12-6

We are 6 days into December already!  this month is going so fast.  I got me a new Christmas Season Sweatshirt last night after lessons.  It is black and says Joy.  I think it is pretty cool.  I now have 3 Christmas Sweatshirts.  I love my sweatshirts.  I have several Disney ones. (that shouldn't surprise anyone) I had a few lessons today.  Charlie stayed a bit later to help with the new batteries.  He put the new batteries in the cases for my scooter.  The scooter store said it was easy, well, I have news for them, it wasn't.  Charlie did a good job though and the new batteries are charging as we speak.  I am supposed to charge them a lot this week.  I sure hope this is the answer to my scooter issues.  I will test it out on the weekend when the batteries are very charged.

Julie is coming tomorrow again to help with the family room.  I rescheduled my blood test to Friday.  I am going to bed earlier than usual tonight since I will be getting up early.

I do hope you are having a good day!

Monday, December 5, 2011

Monday 12-5

It was back to normal for me today.  I had three lessons this afternoon, Rachel, Bob, and Isaac.  We all talked about the concert.  I think they did well and told them so.  Isaac did very well for his first concert.  This was Rachel's 2nd concert and she did really well too.  I showed Isaac what games on the computer I want him to play for his piano lesson.  He thought the game looked fun.  I loaned him the disc so he can download it on his computer.  I think this will help him a lot.  Bob also did very well at the concert too.

I slept in a bit today.  I was just so tired from standing so much yesterday.  My right side was very sore by time I came home last night after dinner.  I needed to help some of my little ones for the concert so I was standing a lot in the beginning of the concert and then again at the reception after the concert.  Many of the families stayed for the reception.  Usually, we are in the social hall for the reception, but this time we were in the library.  It worked out well.

My table looks so nice with the new Christmas Plant on my new tablecloth.  I took the other one back because I had bought a duplicate one by accident.  I didn't remember buying one, but I did.  I still don't remember buying it, but since the table cloth was on the counter and I had another one on the table, I had proof that I bought it so I returned one of them.  I also had to pick up some milk and bread.  I was almost out of both of them.

My friend, Heather B-T is putting the lights on my tree.  She does them really nicely, not just wrapped around the tree.  They are almost a part of the tree.  It is really pretty.  This weekend I will decorate for Christmas.  I am going to put some garlands at the entrance of each stairs like Lily did last year.  I also have a whole bunch of Disney ornaments to put on my tree.  I am very excited about Christmas decorating.  I have some really nice decorations.  If the lights aren't finished on Friday, I can wait until next week to decorate.  I don't mind.  So far, my students like the lights that are on the tree.  It is very pretty.  I like decorating for Christmas.  New Year's Eve I am going to the Bowman-Tomlinson house again.  I had a really good time last year when I went.  I was invited to go again.  Calli was happy about that too.  We love playing games together especially Uno.  Calli has a Brailled set of Uno cards so she can play by herself and not have to have a partner to help her.  She is a very independent young lady.  I like that about her.

My legs are not as sore today as they were last night.  I did wake up a few more times than usual because of the pain, but as morning arrived the pain lessened.  I am a bit more tired and weary today but that was to be expected.  Overall, I think I did pretty well for the concert.  I had about the amount of extra pain that I expected.  I gauged it pretty well.  I will probably sleep in again tomorrow.  I have to figure out what new songs I am giving Aaiyana tomorrow.  Her mom was very upset with her last week.  She said that this was the last month for Aaiyana for lessons.  I don't know if she really will make her quit or not.    Aaiyana apparently is not practicing like she should be.  It is hard to say.  She is only 8 years old.  She is a delightful child to work with though and I think she is doing very well.

It has been a busy couple of weeks, with the holidays and the concert.  Everything should slow down again for the rest of the month.  So far, Bob and Isaac are the only ones who will have lessons during the Christmas and New Year's week.  Rachel's grandmother isn't sure yet but that is okay.  She is scheduled right now, but we can always reschedule if we need too.

I do hope you are having a good day.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Christmas Concert Day 12-4

This afternoon was the Christmas Concert.  It got me thinking.  I have no idea how many Christmas Concerts I have had since I began teaching.  I don't remember the first one, I do remember some of them but I don't know which one was first.  I know that I used to have them at the Dance Studio when I only had a few students.  Today's went a bit longer than I thought it would.  It lasted about 2 hours.  Woops, I thought it would only be one and a half hours.  Guess I was a bit off.  I think for spring I will have to re-think how many pieces the students get to do.  I have had them doing two for the last few years because I didn't have that many students, but I guess that is over now again.  I am hoping for more duets and small groups this spring.  It all depends on what everyone wants to do, I suppose.  I won't be thinking about it for a long time right now.

Uncle John and Michelle came with Jayson, my cousin to the concert.  It is the first one they have ever seen of my students.  Tillie and Don were here too.  After the concert we went out to dinner at Red Lobster.  It was so yummy!  I ended up bringing home 1/2 of my salad and the bread bowl.  I love their soup and salad combination.  It is what I usually get although I do like their bake potatoes too.  I love shrimp the most out of the sea food choices.  Then we came back to my house.  Tillie and Don left right away because they wanted to stop and get some groceries from the grocery store on the way home.  Uncle John and Michelle stayed a while longer.  Jayson was playing with the legos and the cars.  He knows where the good toys are.  He is such a cutie.  He is 4 and goes to Junior Kindergarten.  He goes to a French school so he is learning French along with Michelle.  I am so glad that they all seemed to enjoy themselves and had a good time.  It is nice for me to show them what I do and see how well the kids are doing.  Several of them have been with been with me for a very long and it is nice to see Tillie recognized them.  She has watched the Muglia girls grow up and same with Charlie.  Bob had to miss a few concerts in the last year so she hasn't seem him lately.  Many of my new students are brand new so they are new to everyone.  I am thankful for the new and the old students.  Without them, it would be difficult to get through the day and pay my bills.  When I only had very few students and a lot of days free, it was hard to get through the days.  Fortunately, I had Mom at that time and she helped a lot.  Now it is just me but I have all the memories of her.  There is a particular picture of my Uncle John and Momma from when he was young.  I am going to have the picture enlarged and put it in a frame for him and then one for me as I love this picture of them together.  It was taken in 1955 so Mom would have been 21 and Uncle John would be 7 as he is 14 years younger than Mom.  Here is the picture:


Don't they look cute?  I just love the picture.  I don't know where they are but they look like they are having a good time.

I do hope you are having a good day.  I am exhausted and have a bit more of a headache than usual tonight.  My legs are so sore from standing so much this afternoon especially the right hip and leg.

Saturday, December 3, 2011

busy Saturday 12-3

It has been so busy today with getting ready for the concert.  I am printing the program now on really pretty paper.  It is a different program style than usual since I used some really neat paper.  It is just one page not the usual booklet.  I really like the paper and I totally forgot I even had it.  That is definitely something I would do.  I know I have some other pretty paper, I just am not sure where it is.  Boy, last week at this time I was with Kathy and we had just finished watching Breaking Dawn at the movies.  It was a good movie.  I really enjoyed it.  Surprisingly, it was pretty close to the book for the most part.  A few scenes were added but they made the movie more enjoyable instead of distracting.  I got up a bit earlier than usual for a Saturday so that Brianne could have her lesson.  She is pretty ready for the concert.  Sandra and Camille are definitely ready for the concert.  I have to put the presents together and then that is it for the concert.  I have the plates and cups in the car already so that is good!  I am very tired now after running around a bit this afternoon and evening.  I had to go and get ink because I thought the ink was going out.  So far, it is doing well.  Then earlier, I had to get gas because I was at a 1/4 tank and I don't like to be below that in the winter.  I know my car sits in the garage, but still if it is super cold out, it might not start so I have to keep it at at least 1/2 tank all winter.  It just makes me feel better if I do.  It is something Mom taught me when I started driving.  Never leave the car below 1/4 tank in the coldest of winter, your gas lines could freeze and that would be bad!  (Not to mention expensive to fix!)

I sure hope I print enough programs this time.  I used to have this down to a science, but not anymore!  The years of not having a lot of students has thrown me off my track.  So far I have printed 45.  I want to print 15 more.  I used the entire pack of paper so how ever many it prints is it for me.  I hope it will be enough.  I think so.  There aren't that many students, only 23 so I should have enough.  I did realize earlier today that I don't have enough mugs for Christmas gifts.  I have enough for the concert, but not for the ones who are not in the concert.  My printer is printing very slowly right now.  I don't know why.  Maybe it always does and I just have not ever noticed.  I have to copy the music for Jingle Bells tonight for tomorrow too.  Everyone is singing Jingle Bells at the end of the concert.  The programs are almost finished printing.  Then on to the mugs, stockings, pencils, and candy for the treat bags.  I was really unsure how to wrap the mugs but these treat bags should work wonderfully, I hope anyway.

I was able to talk to Kathy this evening.  Her parents are moving in a few months to a retirement community.  It has assisted living and a nursing home within the community if one of them should need it.  While I am glad that they are looking ahead (they are in their mid 70s), I am sad that it is so far away from me.  However, Kathy and I will do just fine when she comes to visit.  It is about 45 to 60 minutes away.  I have a general idea of where it is so that is good.  I don't plan to let something like this stop Kathy and I from visiting.  I am also hopeful that Kathy will be coming to visit me some time in the new year by herself.  We had a good time when she came last year.  It was so sweet, her daughter wished her to have a good time.  She has very sweet little girls.  All four of her children are just very nice children.  Matthew, her oldest is getting very tall (he is 13), Jacob is also growing like a weed (he is 10 or 11), and the twins are still sweet little girls (they are 5).  Kathy and family will be coming for Christmas as usual.  I am excited about seeing her.  I have no lessons on Christmas Eve as the online company is closed that day.  I figured that most people would be busy that day anyways so I didn't expect any lessons.  I do hope to have a lot during the week between Christmas and New Years.  I am not going anywhere so if students are available so am I!

Well, my printing is almost done printing and it is time to work on the treat bags!  I do hope you are having a good day.  I have had a bit of a bad headache most of the day, but I was able to teach so that was good.  I wasn't sure first thing in the morning, but it turned out okay!  Tomorrow will be crazy with the concert but it will be a good time.

Friday, December 2, 2011

It's Friday! 12-2

I thought I picked up everything I need for the concert.  Except, I forgot the ink for the printer.  Woops!  I will go tomorrow after lessons to pick it up.  I have the treat bags that all of the presents will go in.  It shall be awfully cute I think.  I also got the cookies for the concert reception.  I am going to work on the program in a few minutes after I finish this post.  I will print the program tomorrow after lessons too.  I can't believe the concert is here already.  It is just amazing how fast November went.  Now it is December and the Christmas Season again.  It is still rather weird to me to be celebrating the Christmas Season without my mother.  She loved the season so much.  She would get all excited about decorating and planning our gifts and surprises.  Mom was so good at surprises.  Mom and I also would usually see a show during the season or we would get the tickets for a show after Christmas.  The last show we saw was the Broadway Version of "White Christmas".  It was wonderful and we both had a really good time.  Since money was super tight at that point, (I had no income at this time because we had just lost the store) it was our Christmas present to and from each other.  It worked for me.  I didn't expect anything else but Mom bought me the music carebear.  I really love it.  It makes me think of Mom and smile when I see it.  It is one of many stuffed animals Mom had bought me.  She bought me many Winnie the Pooh and friends too.  I also got her a couple of other things for that Christmas.  We had a good time on Christmas.  We went to church Christmas Eve as usual and she did very well.  We had stopped going to church because Momma just couldn't sit through the service but that one she did really well.  I was happy about that.  We sat with Kathy and her family.

I was wondering how I was going to wrap the mugs for the students.  Well, I got some treat bags and that will work perfect.  I just didn't get the ornaments done.  I couldn't sew.  Sewing was something I did with my mother and right now, without her, I can't really do it.  Maybe later I can, but not right now.  It just hurts too much to do.  Some much still hurts so much to do without her.  Most of the time I am okay but some things are still super hard for me.  I also have the cutest little stockings for the students.  i will fill them with candy kisses and Christmas pencils.  Maybe next year I will be able to go back to my sewing ornaments for the kids.  I will have to wait and see.

Calli and Katie practiced their duet again tonight.  They will do very well.  We tried to have maracas during the song but it really distracted them so no maracas, just voices.  We tried it and they didn't like it so that is okay.  Acer is ready for both his vocal piece and his piano piece.  Calli has been ready for about a week now.  I don't know why I worried about her piano piece.  She plays it beautifully.  Calli has been ready for a couple of weeks for her vocal pieces.  Emily is very ready too.  I think at this point everyone is very ready for the concert.  I am glad we are having the concert earlier in the season this year.  It frees up the rest of the season for everyone to do whatever they want to do.  I hope we have it this early again next year.  I have discovered I like it earlier in the season rather than later like I used to do.  For some of the students, next week means choosing what they want to perform at competition.  Katie is going and she needs to figure out what all she wants to sing.  I think I know what classical piece she wants, it is the rest of her songs I am not sure about.  Rebecca has already decided.  She is singing a classical piece, an inspiration piece, and a Broadway piece.  We have been working on them already.  Aggie hasn't totally decided everything yet.  They are really the only ones who are attending.  It is a low number for me, but that is okay.  I have a lot of new students who are really not ready to compete.  It is okay though.  Maybe some of them will want to compete next year.

It has been a productive type day, although I was so exhausted this morning.  I do hope your day was good too.  I have a bit of a bad headache now, I hope it goes down to the normal headache by bedtime, otherwise, it will be hard to sleep and I have to get up a bit early for a lesson.

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Thursday 12-1

It is the first day of December!  Oh my!  I am unprepared for Christmas and the New Year!  Sunday is the Christmas Concert.  That, I am some what prepared for.  I have the students Christmas presents, I just have to wrap them.  I wish I could get some plain white bags because that would be so much easier to use that to wrap them.  The gift they got is difficult to wrap.  I will find something that will work though.  I will stop by the craft store tomorrow to see what they have.  A cool stocking would be neat too.  Who knows?  I will find something.

My friend, Laura stopped by tonight.  She was picking up a lot of the raffle items for the event she is involved in this weekend.  I think I have about 10 violins left and I am very excited about that.  There are a couple that are not painted.  I may do the this winter.  I am not sure.  I will see how this winter goes.  I don't have to have them done and if I don't that is okay.

Choir went well tonight.  We are not singing in the Christmas Eve services.  I am relieved because I was planning on going to church with Kathy and family.  I think I should be able to be there Christmas Day though.  I will see.  I won't be there this Sunday but I should be there for the next two before Christmas.  We are singing some pretty awesome music.  We really are.  I like all of it.  This Sunday is the song "Joy, Joy, Joy" but I won't be there because of the Christmas Concert.  I have to pick up some black ink tomorrow too since I know I will be out before the end of the printing of the concert program.  I am going to begin the program on Friday and print on Saturday afternoon/evening.  I also will clear the dining room table on Friday or Saturday so it is empty for Sunday.  I hope to have a new table cloth for it too.  I am not sure, but I will try.

I was so tired this morning.  I am slept pretty well for a change.  I am hoping for another decent night sleep tonight.  I am tired now so I will be heading upstairs rather soon.  I did wake up once and had to come down and read for a few minutes but then I didn't wake up again for several hours, which is really awesome.  I will read for a bit to exhaust myself even more.  I have to go through my books and see what I don't want and what I do.  That will be the hard part, choosing books to donate or take to the used bookstore.  I like taking them to the used bookstore because then I get the lower prices of the new to me books I buy.  I won't go and get anymore right now, but eventually I will after the property taxes are paid.  I have another payment ready to go out tomorrow after I go to the bank.  It will be a big one and I am excited about it.  This will bring the payments close to what I was hoping for.  I am thankful for that. Only 3 more months of these huge payments to save for and then 2010 taxes are all paid for.  Then I can start on 2011, which I got a bill for today.  Oh my, the never ending property taxes!  At least it is less than last year's at this time.

I do hope you are having a good day.  It started as a not feeling so hot day to a better day.  24 days until Christmas!!

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Some progress being made!

Julie came over this morning (yes, I mean the real morning, not after 12 noon) to help me with the family room.  We are making good progress.  Sometime this week, I am to go downstairs and start separate the books that I want from the ones that I don't.  I can do this.  There are a lot books down there.  I also found some nice Disney ornaments that I am putting on the tree this year and those that don't fit on the tree will be used next week.  This year, I am going to have the little one upstairs, but next year, I will put the little one on the fireplace or the sewing table and then buy a new, bigger tree for the living room.  In the spring we will go up to the attic and pull down what is up there and go through it.  I know there are a lot of Christmas boxes up there as well as two trees that I don't think are in good shape.  I could be wrong, but I won't know until we look at them next spring.  So we have designated some stuff to go to Kathy (2 boxes full of games for the kids, 2 that have never even been opened) and then some for donation in general as well as stuff to toss.  We have space on the floor that we haven't had in a long time.  I am very excited about that.  Once the books are out of the way and I know what I am keeping, then we will bring the bookshelf in the living room back downstairs where I like it.  the little bookshelf that was in the family room will go in the living room for the games.  i also found some Christmas Beanie Babies I didn't remember i had as well as this beautiful precious moment statue.  It is of Joseph as a shepherd.  It is wonderful.  We also found a Bambi Christmas Snow globe.  Lots of treasures found today.  It was very exciting.  I now can't wait to decorate the tree.  If they have time on Saturday, Ross and Julie will come over and then we can take some of the bar stools to the donation place.  I don't want them and I tried to sell them, but no one wanted them so that is okay, I will donate them.  They are in very good condition.  We also have craft and sewing things on the shelf unit on the round table side.  That is the craft room.  It is so nice to see the crafts and materials on the shelves.  It makes me smile because our room is getting back to normal and that is good.  The only thing I need to do in the family room with the lamps is see about getting new lampshades.  The old was are ripped a bit from childhood so that needs to be fixed.  We are starting with the family room, the working our way up the stairs.  Some of the dining room will be taken care of because the DVDs and the books will be going back downstairs where I like them as well as the tools that are sitting behind me.  I now have a tool box to put them in again.  I am very glad about that.

I am really exhausted tonight.  I will be heading to bed rather early with hopes that I will actually sleep.  I didn't sleep very well last night at all.  I don't know why, but I couldn't sleep and then I had nightmares in the morning before I woke up.  I hope tonight is not a repeat.  I don't think it will be, but I will pray that I won't anyways.  A little pray certainly can't hurt the situation.  One little chuckle we had this morning.  Julie found my etiquette book (one of several) and she opened to a page that said what to do in a certain situation, well I have a relative who is in that situation and I found it funny because Miss Manners says to avoid this situation at all costs!  We both chuckled at that one.  It was pretty funny.  I bought the books so I would be up on proper etiquette for email, messaging, and things like that.  I wanted my employees to be well mannered so that we all could get through any situation that arose.  It didn't actually always work, but I did get some of my points across.  A couple I bought because they were humorous books about etiquette, called "The Etiquette Grls" with the i purposely missing.  They were really funny and very helpful.  Mom and I enjoyed them.

I do hope you are having a good day.  The progress we made was wonderful although I should point out Julie did most of the work as I can't stand very well or go up and down stairs very well, not too mention walk very far.  I so appreciate her help with this project.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Monday 11-28

November is almost over.  It is almost December and with that comes Christmas!  It is weird to think that again I will be celebrating Christmas without Mom here with me.  It seems like a bad missing Mom day.  I have them from time to time and I probably will for a long time.  I dreamed about her last night for a bit and then I woke up.  It seemed so real to see her and hear her but it will be a while before I actually get to talk to her again.  It is just one of those days.

Monday is a busy day with lessons again.  I am very glad about that.  I actually cannot add anymore to that day, it is booked.  If I have anymore, it will overdo me and that would be bad.  I am looking forward to the concert on Sunday.  So far, all the students seem to be ready.  Two of my girls switched one of their Christmas Songs for a song they already know because they just switched to me (their teacher retired) so I said they could.  The other Christmas song for each of them was just not quite ready enough for them to feel comfortable performing.  Bob switched his 2nd Christmas song today from the Christmas Song to Winter Wonderland.  He plays both well, so it is not a problem.

I am freezing a bit tonight.  I am not sure why.  I keep the house at 73 degrees and yet I am still rather cold.  I have a sweatshirt on and everything.  If I need to, I have a hoodie handy to put on.

I bought some mini lights for the tree.  They are multi color but the ones that are on the bottom half of the tree are clear so I went back to the store and then didn't have any clear ones.  I have to try another store before Friday as on Friday I am hoping my friend, Heather B-T will be able to put them on the tree.  I am not sure when I am decorating the tree, but I would like the lights on to be ready.  I don't think it will be this weekend as the concert is on Sunday and I have some work to do for it on Saturday.  I have to create the program, which is a lot of fun to do.  I already told Aggie she will be near the end as she is one of the advanced students.  Brooke will be near the end too.  I try to put all my little ones first and then my middle ones, and then the advanced ones.  I also like to alternate between voice and piano with a tenor saxophone thrown in there too.  I have to buy a package of cookies this week for the concert too.  I will get some nice decorated Christmas ones.  They will work perfect.  I don't have time to make any this year plus I find I eat too many when I make them.  It is super annoying about that but I do it without even thinking.

My lovely neighbor/friend, Barbara Jean sent her 2 boys over to take care of my recycle bins.  For some reason, I have 2 of them.  Mom somehow got another one a few years ago.  One day, it just appeared so now I have 2 and they are super full.  I have boxes at my front door that need to go to recycling next week.  That should bring me up to date with my recycling.  Right now both my bins are at the end of driveway.  It is so nice to have the little car in the garage.  I get a thrill every time I open or close it when I am either leaving or coming home.  It is just so exciting.

Julie is coming on Wednesday to help me re-organizing my family room.  There are several things that are going to be donated or sold.  I only want the elliptical exercise machine.  I don't want the rest.  There is an old TV that still works with the new type boxes that will be donated along with its TV stand.  Then again, I am debating between keeping the smaller one and getting rid of the bigger one.  Julie and I will discuss this and see what is best.  I am anxious to have a sewing/craft room as well as the library/TV room.  I have a DVD player downstairs already as well as a VCR but I am donating the VCR because I don't need it anymore because I am giving all my videos to one of my friends.  I have many DVDs of the videos that I have so I don't need the videos anymore.  I am going to be saving for a Blue Ray player in the future.  It seems that some of the newer movies are not coming out on DVDs but as combo packs of DVDs and Blue Ray.  I don't know why, but that is the way it is.  I am glad that the Blue Ray players play DVDs too because to re-buy everything that I have on DVD would be so upsetting and not doable at all so I am glad they play.  I want the DVD/Blue Ray combo pack of the Harry Potter movie from target.  I plan to purchase it next week since I will be able to this month.  It is planned in the budget.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

hmm, 11-27

Some many things are racing through my mind tonight.  I don't know why but they are.  Things I need to do, things I want to do, things I don't want to do, you get the picture.  There is so much I just don't know anymore.  I have so many questions about what to do with my life outside of teaching, that there is no question about.  I was born to teach and I love it.  I can't teach as much as I would like, but I am thankful for what I can do.  I think that is the biggest question.  I had to get up early about 5 days this past week.  I felt a crash and burn coming on with the bad headache that I would wake up with and the overall bad feeling.  Yesterday walking from the car to the movie theatre entrance, then to the ticket booth, then to the snack bar, and finally into our theatre was exhausting and painful.  By the time we sat down my legs and hips were burning.  Fortunately, it didn't last too long, but it was burning.  I think it was all a part of the about to crash and burn again flare.  Since I could feel it coming, I didn't set my alarm to go to church today.  I just couldn't because I really felt like I would have woken up to crash and burn mode and that generally means a ER visit.  I think I avoided it.  There are a couple of openings left for students and then that will be it unless one quits.  Thursdays are full to the rim but I do have one opening on a couple of other days.  I am almost to the limit.  Once i reach there, I will have to call the online company and let them know that until a student quits, I can't take anymore.  In some ways it is a nice feeling to know I am almost full, in other ways it isn't because I used to be able to handle 50 to 60 lessons a week without a problem.  Now I couldn't do it at all.  It is just too exhausting.  I really enjoyed myself this long weekend and I did pace myself as best as I could so I am pleased with that.  I just needed today to really rest and I did that.  I did have 2 lessons, but they were low key students and it was fun but the rest of the day is resting.  I am very glad that I had my students today because they allowed me to have the day off yesterday to be with Kathy and I am glad about that.  It just makes me wonder about a lot of things.  I no longer feel the crash and burn feeling and the headache is the normal headache now but what would have happened if I had gone to church?  I nearly passed out last week too so would I have had that happen this week?  I don't know but I wasn't going to find out either.  I don't know what is going on with this lightheadedness but no one seems to be too worried about it.  It doesn't happen all the time, but every so often.  I hope it goes away soon.

Aggie had her lesson today after not having one for a very long time.  I was happy to see her.  i copied her song on my computer for the concert so I now have it.  I have a copy of Breanna's song too.  I just need to copy it on the computer.  I need to put the concert in order.  I will do that this week.  I will be working on the program during the week but I won't be printing it until Saturday because if I print it earlier, than I always end up needing to print it again, this way, I don't.  i won't be going to church next Sunday because of the concert.  I will need the extra rest in the morning to get through the afternoon.  I know this from previous concerts.  I have about a good 5 to 6 hours a day and that is about it.  Anything after that is very iffy and I can't guarantee that I am with it or able to function.  I have a very limited window and that is just the way this illness leaves me.  I am glad I have that window though because some people I know, don't even have that.  After a couple of hours they are wiped out.  At least I get a good 5 or 6 hours out of it.  Camille also had her lesson today.  She graciously switched from yesterday to today so I could spend the entire day with Kathy and family.  We went over the jingle bells songs that everyone is singing at the end at the end of her lesson.  I think she enjoyed the singing.  Her piano pieces are doing well.  I am very pleased with her progress.  She doesn't want to go to competition this year either.  That leaves Aggie, Katie, and Rebecca for competition this year.  Calli is just too busy and so is Acer so they are planning to go next year.  Hey, what works for them, works for me.

I am going to get some dinner now.  I am kind of hungry.  Then I am going to do a bit of sewing, mostly cutting out the ornaments before I go to bed.  I am very tired tonight.  I foresee going to bed rather early for a change since I am so exhausted.  I am glad I didn't get the crash and burn flare that was coming or at least I hope I missed it by resting more today than usual.  I can always hope.

I do hope you had a good Thanksgiving weekend and are enjoying your day.

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Saturday 11-26

I just got a crazy phone number.  Apparently, I qualify for a $125 gift certificate because I use my bank card a lot in the last 6 months.  I don't carry cash as it manages to disappear way too fast.  However, once I got to the "supervisor" he wanted the expiration date of my card, and the actual card number although he called it something else.  I am not giving someone over the phone my card.  It makes me wonder how many will fall for this and give them the number.  It was very scary.  I hung up on him.  I did say, no thank, goodbye.  Really!  I mean oh my gosh!  The scams these people have today.  He kept calling it the legal description (I knew I would remember somehow) to make it sound like he didn't want the number but that is exactly what they wanted.  Wow, that was a clever scam, let me tell you.  It is frightening that many people would fall for this.  It is crazy.

On a better note, I spent mostly the entire day with Kathy and family.  I arrived shortly after noon and then we had lunch, which was so yummy, let me tell you!  Kathy's Mom is a great cook!  So anyways, Kathy, her family, and I chatted away during the lunch.  I think I ate too much, although I did do very well with the choices I made.  I ate lots of vegetables (and I don't mean the mashed potatoes).  The mixed vegetables were particularly yummy and so was the corn on the cob.  The turkey and dressing were very yummy too.  I like dark meat so that is what I had.  After lunch, I helped a bit with the clean up.  I tried to be as helpful as possible.  I collected all the plates and cutlery that were on the table and took them to Kathy who would put them in the dish washer.  Kathy and I chatted a bit while I drooled over his Nook color.  She has some really interesting books on there and she said some were free even!  I do want one.  Now there are 2 things I want, a Blue Ray player and a Nook Color although a regular Nook would be nice too.  I am not that picky.  Kathy and I went to see Breaking Dawn.  Now, I still have not seen Eclipse, but I will watch it this week.  Breaking Dawn was very good.  I was not sure about it because the first 1/2 of the book doesn't have too much action after the wedding, but it was really good.  The downside is that we have to wait another YEAR before part 2 comes out unlike the 2 parts of Harry Potter, which came out 6 months apart.  I wish they would do that with Breaking Dawn, but they aren't.  I will wait as it isn't like I have too much of a choice but to wait.  I know am going to re-read the entire series as soon as I finish the book I am reading right now.

It is such a cool thing to have a car in the garage!  I get a thrill down my spine every time I open or close it.  I am just so happy about putting my baby car in the garage!  (It is amazing how the little things in life can make you happy)  It will be especially nice for Sunday mornings when I have to be at church so early.  No more scraping the car windows in the morning before church.  After church, well, then it doesn't matter if the car is covered in snow.  I want to move the round, card table that is in the garage.  Come this winter it will get awfully dirty being in front of my car so I will move it during the day tomorrow.  I so love that my car is in the garage!  I really do!

I have a bit of a bad headache now.  It is on the right side of my head.  I woke up with it but I wasn't going to let it get me down.  It was better this afternoon after I took my pain pills, but now it is back.  I am resting mostly this evening anyway so it won't interfere with anything that I am doing.

I am going to be starting the sewing tomorrow afternoon in between lessons.  I brought down the material this morning when I came down the stairs.  I will bring up the rest of the material tomorrow afternoon.

I went to go and get my hair washed yesterday but the salon was closed.  It was also closed when I went to check after the movie.  I am going to be brave and try to do it myself.  My shoulder seems to be doing okay this weekend, so i will try.  I usually have the local salon do it because of my shoulder.  It is very difficult to wash my hair and dry my hair with one arm that won't reach but I have noticed that it isn't as difficult to lift these past few weeks.  After my last lesson, Rebecca, I will attempt to wash my hair.  We shall see how well it works!  If it does work, I won't need to go and get it done for me although I will admit that I do like having someone else doing it for me!  It makes me feel important and a queen!  Mom used to do it until about 7 months before she passed away.  It was just one more thing to find another way to do myself or find another person to do it.  When I started getting it done, it was only $3 for the wash and the dry, now it is $10.  I think it is worth it.

The American Girl Place in Chicago commercial is on right now.  I can't wait for Kathy's girls to get into American Girl stuff.  I have been the store in Chicago about 2 or 3 days after it opened.  It was very busy that day but it was worth looking at.  I am hoping that if Kathy ever takes the girls, then I will go with them.  I love the American Girl stuff.  I used to get Samantha and Celia American Girl stuff when they were small.  They are my cousins.  Now they are 22 and 25 years old.  they grew entirely way to fast.  Celia is a parent now.  She has 2 small children, 5 and 3 (around at that age I think).

I forgot to gather the DVDs, books, and games that are going to Kathy.  I am loaning her some books and I am giving her the DVDs and games but I forgot to get them together yesterday.  I will give them to her at Christmas.  That will be the next time I see her, I think.

I do hope you have had a good day.  I sure did.  Pain level, while a bit higher than usual, didn't interfere with the day like sometimes it does.

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