It is weird in a way because with all the health issues I have, I am hopeful that someday there will be a cure for this. That someday we will all be free of pain and free of all the other symptoms we have. I just know that we will. When, well, who knows?
I find it easier to live being hopeful despite my high anxiety because when I focus on hope and living well, I am in less pain and less fatigue. I also have a beautiful way to lessen my anxiety by hugging and cuddling Peony, our gorgeous doggie. I love her so much. Between Maisy and Peony I have really learned how dogs or pets in general, can really lower anxiety and provide so much love. I miss Maisy, I loved her so much. I am thankful for all that she taught me. I believe that she is in Heaven playing away everyday with many other furry friends of ours. I also believe she has met my mother, who was my biggest support when I became ill. She stood by me and really believed me when no one else did. I could tell her exactly how I felt and knew that she would believe me. I miss her an awful lot too.
I have had a good weekend so far. Last night, I went to spend the night at my friend's house to watch her children. I simply adore her children. They are very good kids and generally get along okay. I do have rules that they have to be nice to each other but generally they are good. The oldest, Angus (15) and I ended up staying up until 1:45 am watching a movie. Oh my, I am so tired from it. I did enjoy the movie a lot. We also watched the first Hobbit movie, which I have seen before, once but it was nice to see again. I really enjoyed watching the movies with Angus. Rose (9) and Hayden (10) ended up going to bed late because I didn't realize what time it was. Tasha (13) was upset because she went to bed on time and didn't get to stay up later. I said it was my fault they went to bed late, not them so too bad. She was not happy about that but she did go to bed. I love these kids. I had to leave earlier than I would have wanted to because I had a lesson at 2 and it was over an hour drive home. I hope to see them again rather shortly.
The kids are coming this weekend! I am so excited!!!! How exciting! It will be great! I wonder if I will end up with 5 again meaning the neighbor girl across the street, Bella, (Rose's friend) will come and spend a night too? It doesn't matter. Either way works.
Well, dinner will be done soon. Peony is sitting under my chair and I love rubbing my foot against her fur!
