Thursday, May 30, 2013

Wow, how time flies! 5-30

I can't believe that tomorrow is the last day of May!  June first here we come!  It has been a bit since I last posted.  I have had 4 doctor appointments/tests done and a final one tomorrow at the kidney doctor.  I had a camera scope type test today.  That is the last test at this point that the doctor can do to see if there is any bleeding in the GI system.  Tuesday, I was at the neurologist.  She and I decided to discontinue the Amitriptylin (however you spell it) medicine as I still was getting hallucinations and I don't feel like it has helped at all.  In 3 weeks I will be done taking the medicine.  Wednesday was the hearing test.  I have known for years that I am partially deaf.  How deaf?  Well, I didn't really know that part, I just knew I was partially deaf.  When I was 13, I had an ear infection that lasted pretty much the entire school year.  My ears were blocked and I never told my mom.  I was afraid to tell her because I wasn't wearing my hat when I got sick and I didn't want to get in trouble for it.  Well, unfortunately, that was the wrong thing to do.  Yes, eventually my mom found out how bad they really were and took action.  Now, don't get me wrong, mom questioned me a lot and I said I was fine so if I had told the truth, I would probably not have permanently damaged my ears like I have.  So once mom found out and got me to the doctor, the specialist said I probably have damaged my ears permanently.  Mom was so upset and so was I.  I learned an extremely important lesson.  No matter what, always tell Mom when you aren't feeling well, especially if your ears hurt!  The new specialist I saw said that the hearing loss is from scar tissue from ear infections.  It has been years since I had an ear infection (thank God for that!) so it is probably from when I was 13.  The bottom line is I will be getting hearing aids.  I am glad that there is no nerve damage and if I use the hearing aids now, I can prevent nerve damage so yes, I will be wearing them.  I am looking into different programs to see if there is one that can help me pay for the hearing aids as I am on a limited income and cannot afford to pay for them all by myself.

Today, I had a camera scope type test.  I had to have clear liquids all afternoon and evening yesterday to prepare for the test.  It wasn't hard to do at all.  I went in at 8 am and then swallowed the capsule that is the camera and I had a monitor on so then I went on my way home.  The test is supposed to last from 8 to 4 but because of the lovely IBS, I finished early.  It will be 10 to 12 days before I get any results.

Tomorrow, I have the kidney doctor check up.  In 2008, it was discovered that I had a mass on one of my kidneys.  i can't remember which one.  I had it all checked out and it is not cancerous or at least then it wasn't.  In 2009, I went for a check up and then I was supposed to go every year to make sure it didn't grow or become cancerous.  Well, let's just say it is a good thing that they sent me a letter saying that I hadn't had my check up in a long time.  2009 was the last check up so because it has been 5 years, I have to refill out a lot of forms when I get there tomorrow.  I don't mind.  I know that I have to do it so I will arrive early to do this.  I will probably have an ultrasound done soon to check out the mass.  I don't expect to have it tomorrow but soon.  I know that they can be done at his office so that is good.  I really don't expect that it has changed in size since it wasn't cancerous before but it is something I should not have totally forgotten about.  I was just so busy with mom that really, I couldn't think about anything else except what she needed.  It was the last year of her life in 2010 so I really needed to focus on her and I did.  Should I have not skipped the appointment?  Of course I shouldn't.  The reason they didn't call to remind me like they normally do is because the phone number they had was our landline and we got rid of it before the next appointment or I would have gone.  They have the right number now and I received my reminder call today so I am all set for tomorrow.

Well, I am a bit tired more tired now than usual since I had to get up so early today.  I am going to read for a bit and then go to sleep.

Sunday, May 19, 2013

The beginning of another week in the musical zoo. 5-19

I want to get a sign and paint it.  It will say, welcome to the musical zoo.  It so describes this house.  We have music somewhere going on pretty much all day and evening.  Acer and I listened to some veggie tales music this afternoon.  I love listening to music with him.  He is such a serious young man when it comes to music.  We started listening in his room and then we came down to the dining room because I was hungry so I had a bagel.  We shared his ear buds.  I was so exhausted today that I had to take a rest after I finished my bagel.  I am just that tired today.  I have been so tired lately.  I feel like I haven't gotten back to myself since I got out of the hospital.  I know it takes time to recover but seriously, it has been 3 weeks already!  I should be back to normal by now.  Or at least, that is what I think.  Naturally, my body doesn't agree.

Calli helped with the dishes this weekend.  It was a big help.  I am so tired and sore.  I really appreciate when she helps me.  I just have to empty the dishwasher before bed tonight.  There aren't too many dirty dishes right now.

Tomorrow, I have 2 lessons.  I have to copy a couple of new songs for Isaac for singing.  He is going to sing the Policeman's Song and the Pirate King.  Both are Gilbert and Sullivan.  I also need new songs for Nick this week.  I gave Natalie a few new songs on Friday.  She seemed to like them a lot.  I hope so.  I have to transcribe "Alleluia" by Mozart to make a practice CD for Sally.  She is having a hard time with the runs.  I have slowed it down so she can work on each individual note.  It doesn't take too long to do and since I know that I will be using that song for other students in the future.

Well. I am off to read for a bit.

Friday, May 17, 2013

Friday 5-17

The Fellowship of the Ring is on TNT right now.  I love these movies.  I have no idea how many times I have seen them.  I love the extended versions best because they really allow the movie to tell the story.    It is at the point in the movie right before the secret meeting.

It has been a light day today.  Not like yesterday with no lessons, but there were absences.  Acer has started working on some theory to teach him how to compose music.  He already does write music but I think at this point some theory background was needed.  He did very well with the first lesson.  He knows the primary chords, the I, IV, and the V.  He also knows the proper names of them, the Tonic, Subdominant, and the Dominant.  I did introduce him to all the names of the chords in the scale, but he only needs to know the Primary 3.  He immediately could transpose all of the chords to every scale he knows.  Yes, he is a very musical young man.  I think that as long as he is interested and can understand what we are doing, then we will continue.  He was excited when I told him that we would also be working on writing small pieces.  Acer was also excited to learn that the book we are using is the same book I used in college.  Music is such a part of him, not just something he likes, but it really is a part of his soul (like it is mine) that I believe he should learn whatever I can teach him.  I don't think there is an instrument that he has heard that he doesn't want to learn how to play.  He loves so many types of music too.  I am very happy with what he is doing in his lessons.  He does both piano and voice.  Acer does practice most of the time like he is supposed to but sometimes he does not.  After all, he is only 8, just because musically speaking he is older than 8, in everything else he is only 8.  This summer we are not going to have a summer concert like we have had the last couple of years.  We are going to have some community service concerts instead.  I would like Acer and Calli to both sing "Homeward Bound" together.  They sound so nice together and when they sing together, something wonderful happens.  It is hard to explain but they love to sing together and it shows.

I am very tired again today.  I have not been feeling so well these last few weeks.  I think I am still exhausted from being in the hospital.  i didn't expect to be feeling it still.  I am a bit achier than usual again today too.  I hope for a better day tomorrow.

Thursday, May 16, 2013

One of those days 5-16

It is just one of those days, nothing I can put my finger on, but it is one of those I really kind of out of it today.  I didn't have any lessons and that is very unusual as on Thursdays I usually have 1 sometimes 2 so to have no students is just plain weird.  My headache is getting worse tonight.  I hope it does not become worse or a flare.  Both would be bad.  I think my anxiety is a bit high tonight too.  I don't have anything to be anxious about so I don't know why it feels so high.  I really don't have a reason.  Everything has been going really well with all the changes.  I am happier with having others in the house.  Heather B-T, Bill, Acer, and Calli are pretty easy to live with.  Maisy and Q are very easy to live with.  Everyone seems to have adjusted to living here, including the dogs.  I think I have adjusted well too.  So why is my anxiety up?  I have no idea.  It just happens sometimes.

I met with my friend, Jennie for lunch today.  We had a good time.  Her youngest daughter, Mary was there also.  She is growing so fast.  It is hard to believe that Mary is 4 already.  It seems like yesterday that Mary was born.  We visited for about 2 or so hours.  I like how we meet up every few months.  Frann would like to meet up with her also.  I am checking my schedule to see what will work for me for all of us to meet up.  Wendy wants to come too so that will be very fun.

I started the medicine for the swelling of my hands, legs, ankles, and feet 2 weeks ago.  I really hope it helps because the right calf is so swollen.  It is about 2 to 3 inches larger than the left calf.  It is awful.  I know that I need to lose weight, but wow, this swelling is making it even worse.  I also will be beginning the B6, which is also supposed to help with the swelling.  Something has got to work soon.

I am going to read for a bit.

Sunday, May 12, 2013

fixing the confusion 5/12

Oops.  I didn't realize that I never mentioned that the friend who has moved in with her family is also named Heather.  I am sorry for the confusion.  I think from now on when I mention the other Heather, I will use Heather B-T to differentiate between us.  I know it is confusing at times.  Heather B-T is the mother of Calli and Acer.  She is also the furmom of Maisy.  Q belongs to Calli.  Bill is Heather B-T's husband.  Heather B-T is the one who does the gardening, certainly not me.  I am very happy that they are here.  I feel so much better than I did when I was alone.  I have enough privacy when I want it and I have someone to talk to when I want also.

Maisy is sitting right beside me tonight.  She also jumped up on the dining room chair for the first time. She is a smart cookie that is for sure.  Love that little dog.

Mother's Day was not bad for me.  Yes, I missed mom.  I miss her everyday so that was nothing new.  I went to Tilley's house to visit.  It was a very good visit.  We went to the movies and watched Romeo and Juliet that was a live performance in Russia.  It was being filmed live as we watched it in Windsor by satellite.  I found it so beautiful.  I love Ballet.  The music was simply amazing.  We had a nice time together.  We went to dinner at a little Vietnamese Restaurant.  It was really good.  I really liked it a lot. I wouldn't mind going back.

Well, I think it is time to go and read for a bit.

Saturday, May 11, 2013

Saturday 6-11

I re-read my post from yesterday.  I guess I was much more tired than I thought.  There are several mistakes that made me chuckle.  I can't remember what they are now (lovely fibro fog) but they were funny.  Maisy and I have spent an afternoon together.  I had a couple of lessons and then I had to run to get flowers.  When I got back, I took and nap and Maisy and I went up to my room.  She slept on my bed right next to me.  I think we slept for about 1 1/2 hours.  I was just so tired.

Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince is on right now.  Maisy is barking at the door every so often.  She sits by me, then she goes to the door, then she sits by me, then goes to the door, you get the picture.  She tries to be a guard dog.  I had to leave her at home for a bit when I went to get the flowers.  She was so happy to see me that she was on her hind legs trying to jump up on me.  I put the flowers down and then petted her and rubbed her tummy.  I am trying not to pick her up as Heather is trying not to pick her up so much either.  It is hard because she is so snugly.  She is such a sweet dog and lovable dog.  Yes, I have become rather attached to her.  I also am rather attached to the whole family.  Heather and Bill have gone to pick up Acer and Calli from Sports Camp.  They have been there for about 4 days.  I can't wait to hear how it went.  It was Acer's first time going and Calli's first time at the senior camp.  Both were very excited about camp.  It has been very quiet in the house without children for a few days but they will both be home tonight and that will end the quiet in the house.

Before I go to Tilley's tomorrow, I need to get gas and a Mother's Day card for her.  I was going to go and get them this afternoon but I didn't want to leave Maisy at home all by herself for too long a period.  Besides, it wasn't like I absolutely had to go today.  I can go tomorrow no problem.  There is a store right on the way.  I have to remember to get some tummy medicine when I am with Tilley tomorrow.

They are back.  Heather likes her purple tulips.  I am glad about that.  She loves flowers.  They are in her room in one of her vases.  I got a red/pink color tulips in honor of my Momma.  She loved tulips.  They were her favorite flowers that was why I got her those.  I thought the purple tulips were especially pretty so that was why I picked those ones for Heather.

Heather and I took a "tour" of the yard last night.  She and Brandon have been working hard in the yard.  They have planted some trees and flowers too.  The yard will look very nice when they are finished.  It is already looking much better.  Bill cut the grass last night.  He was very tired when he was finished.  Our yard is bigger than their old yard.  I have cut the grass myself when I was younger and I remember how big the yard was.  We also live on a corner so our yard is even bigger than the usual one.

Calli is doing her exercises.  Acer is doing something he needs to do.  Both said they had a good time.  I am glad about that.

I am pretty sore today.  My headache is a bit worse than usual, although much better than earlier before I had a nap.  I am sore all over, not in one place, just all over.  I think I am going to go and read for a while.  I need to be up earlier than usual since I am going to Tillie's and I need to make a couple of stops before I leave.

Friday, May 10, 2013

Friday 5-10

It seems so strange to be Friday again, already.  Wasn't it just Friday yesterday?  Seriously, time seems to fly these days.  Heather and Brandon worked in the kitchen today.  We emptied a whole cabinet.  Shocking, isn't it?  It was full of cookbooks that I said could be donated. I know, that is rather shocking too.  Slowly, we are getting things organized.  Tomorrow I have a few errands to run and then I will be getting some flowers for my mom and for Heather.  I am getting Tulips in honor of my mom since she loved those flowers best.  Heather likes so many flowers so I will get a variety of them for her.  I am surprising her with them.

I am working on not picking up Maisy so much.  I find myself picking her up a lot and it isn't good for my back with the two rods.  Also it isn't always good for Maisy.  I give her lots of attention, I just pick her up all the time like I was.  Right now she is lying down next to me.  She likes to sit in the area next to my chair so she can see upstairs, downstairs, and into the kitchen.  Maisy likes to know where all her people are.

I am going to Tilley's on Sunday.  I am not up to going to see Mom's grave like I thought I might.  I just not besides, she isn't there, only her ashes are there.  Andrew is going and then he is planning to go to Uncle John's.  He has the Christmas presents he never gave Uncle John and Michelle because he didn't see them on Christmas Day.

I am going to read for a bit.  I am getting tired.

Monday, May 6, 2013

Monday 5-6

I had a busy teaching afternoon.  It was the last lessons for my two little guys.  They are headed to India for the summer so I won't see them until fall.  I got big hugs from Rahul and Sam.  Rahul knelt on the piano bench and pretty much launched himself into my arms.  They are such precious boys.  Brooke Anne had her lesson too today.  She is usually on a Thursday but today worked better for her.  She is a really nice young lady.  She takes singing lessons.  Currently, she is working on an Italian Art Song, a Broadway, and a Hymn.  She likes to sing songs that she can sing in church too.  Isaac did not like the new song I picked for him.  I was rather disappointed but when we tried a few others, he did like 3 of them.  I will copy them for him for next week.

Heather and her nephew, Brandon have been working out in the yard.  Heather is a wonderful gardener.  She has bought some plants that she and Brandon were planting today.  Miss Maisy was outside enjoying the nice weather too.  I briefly went out to get some stamps and to make a deposit but I didn't spend too much time outside.  I did open the window to let the fresh air in and I did enjoy that.  I am just not a sit in the sun girl.  I get sun sickness so easy especially with the medicine I take.

The best thing of the day (besides when Acer and Calli come home) is that my lovely little Rachel is back!  Yes, that sweetheart is back!  Her grandmother brings her for lessons and she has been out of town for about 6 weeks so that has been how long it has been since I last saw my little sweetheart.  Rachel is such a nice girl.  She played very nicely too today.  She is really doing well with her note names.  I am so proud of her, well, I am proud of all my students.  I have found some theory things that I think Acer will enjoy learning.  Since the young man likes to make up his own music, why not teach him the tools he needs to make more music?  That is what I thought.  We will start next week as the young man will not be available for a lesson this week.

Castle is on right now but for some reason, I am just not really into watching it today.  I have a lot of brain fog tonight.  My head is beginning to hurt more now too.  I think it is time for this girl to head for bed.  I have to go and pick up a gift certificate for Dan and Mary tomorrow.  They wish to get a certificate from gamestop so I will go and get it tomorrow before lessons.

Sunday, May 5, 2013

the start of another week 5-5

What a rather busy weekend this past weekend was.  Yesterday, I had a couple of lessons and then I did some things I needed to do in the afternoon.  We had dinner outside and then Calli and I went to the store to pick up a few things.  We giggled the whole time, which is normal for the two of us.  Yesterday was a very important day in the house, it was Calli's 4th Gotcha Day!  Which means that 4 years ago, Bill and Heather went to China to pick up Calli to bring her home.  We had strawberry shortcake last night as a special treat for Calli.  Acer's Gotcha Day is coming up too.  Today, I paid some bills and balanced the check book.  Other than that, I can't remember what I did.  I know that I played a bit with Maisy and we had breakfast for dinner, but I can't remember what else I did.

Here are pictures of Maisy.  Is she not the cutest little girl dog ever?  Not to mention she looks like an ewok from star wars when she stands up on 2 legs.  I simply adored her.  She is such a good girl.

Other than more brain fog than usual, I am feeling just the regular amount of pain.  My headache is normal now although it was really bad earlier today.  Well, I am going to read for a bit now.

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

May Day

I remember as a little girl that in school we would have a Maypole and we would dance around it in celebration of May!  Momma would get flowers for us too.  It was a day for flowers in our family.  It is an old custom in Great Britain.  Also, if you would get up before dawn and gather all the dew you can and use it on your face and hands then your face and hands would get softer.  I, of course, never got up early enough for something like that.

In 8 days, my younger brother, Andrew will be 44 years old.  I am not sure if I will see him near his birthday or not.  I hope so but I won't know for a few days.

Calli and Acer's cousin is visiting us.  He is a very nice young man who goes to Wayne State University.

The Spring Concert was on Sunday.  5 students were sick and 2 didn't show up.  I saw the ones who didn't show up on Monday.  Their mom totally forgot about the concert.  It was shorter than they have been but that was okay.  Everyone did really well.  Lydia was upset she couldn't play because she jammed her finger playing football so no playing the piano.  She will have a change to play it another time.  Instead of a regular summer concert, we are going to play for some nursing home or retirement homes.  I think the kids (and adults) will really like it plus the concerts are only about 45 minutes long as that seems to be the best length for them.  I just need to start calling some places to see where we can perform.  We also do not take any money for this.  I know some people do charge but we don't.  First of all, how do you teach students about community service if you take money for it and second, how on earth would I divide the money.  Either way is just not good so it is best that we don't charge.

I am glad that the concert is over and that it went well.  I will say that should I ever end up in the hospital the week of the concert, I will reschedule the concert as i didn't expect to be as exhausted as I was.  I did have a bit of a panic on the Saturday but I was calm by Sunday.  I did have some help from Star so that was good.  I finished the printing of the programs at about 9 pm and I folded them on Sunday.  I had the performing CD ready for Bill also.  I had text the parents asking them to bring pop or cookies for the concert and that worked really well.  We had plenty of pop and cookies.  The reception went well.  I took some pictures that I will post on Face book this week.  I just haven't done it yet.  I will though.

Yesterday was one of those days where I was just so frustrated with being ill in general.  It wasn't anything specific, just in general.  I was just having a tiring day of being sick.  I wanted a day off.  That is all, just a small vacation.  I just needed to complain a bit so I text Kathy and she let me complain for a while and then I was done.  Sometimes just a little complaining works wonders.  Today, I am fine (well, as fine as I get).  I am still pretty tired but I expect that as I get stronger from being in the hospital.  I think my legs are shrinking from the releasing of the extra fluid.  I am hoping so anyways.  I have been on the medicine for the swelling since Monday.  I am hoping it works really well.  I have been having issues with swelling since I was in my 20s.

I have been reading to wee hours in the mornings again.  I am really trying not to do this and go to bed at my regular time but it doesn't always happen.  I bought and finished the new Kristin Hannah book.  It was really good.  I finished it Sunday night.  I am now reading bunheads, which is also a really good book.  It reminds me of when I lived to dance and sing.  It is kind of funny to think that for so long I trained and worked toward being on Broadway but now I would rather teach than perform.  I have come to terms (as best as I can) with this.  I love teaching and I am so thankful that Karen got me started and that my mom helped me with lesson plans and stuff like that.  Mom was so proud that I was a teacher.  She also was behind me when I was training for Broadway.  Mom used to drive me to auditions so I could relax or go over what I needed to do.  She used to keep track of time for me so I was left to warm up and get ready to give the audition my best.  She also went to most of my competitions too.  I was lucky that I had her support even when we were fighting, which was a lot in those days.  I am sad to say that I didn't realize back then how lucky I was to have a momma like mine. I did finally learn, but oh, some of the things I said.  Momma and I had a heart to heart talk when I was about 26.  I asked her if we could talk.  I had questions about things that had happened when I was a child.  We talked about all of the issues we had and were having.  I asked for forgiveness for what I had said and done and she asked for forgiveness for what she had said and done.  That was the turning point in how I looked at my mom.  It was about 6 months before I became terrible sick with the fibro and it never went away.  I do know that Momma wouldn't have changed a thing in helping me even if we didn't have the heart to heart talk but I am glad we had the chance to clear the air between us.

Well, on to reading more about bunheads!!!  (ballet dancers)