It is Friday night and I am just relaxing in my chair in my room. Peony is lying next to my sleeping. She is such a good little doggie. I love her so much. She calms my anxiety which can be so overwhelming some days. I have tried to explain it to my family but they don’t get it. In some ways that is good in others that is bad. My anxiety has improved in some things. I did panic this past week though. We got a letter from the township saying that the shingles need to be picked up from the yard. I thought our roof, which was completely redone in 2008, was falling apart. I called a roof company that was advertising on Facebook. I set an appointment for today at five. I was very anxious about this because I don’t know how I would pay this off. So Bill so the letter and told me that he would put the packaged up shingles in the shed. I asked if they were from our roof. He said no. They are for the shed we are going to build in the spring. I was like so relieved. I cancelled the appointment. I talked to the other Heather (yes there are two of us with the same name in the house) and she said that next time just ask Bill first. I said I would. So our roof is doing really good so I am happy. Now I do know that our furnace will probably be the next big thing to deal with. Anyway. I am not thinking about that one right now.
It is supposed to be a bit chilly here tomorrow. I have warm clothes now in the closet so I am ready. Rose and I changed out all the summer stuff to fall and winter. I have a few short sleeve tops incase it warms up a bit but mostly it is longer sleeves.
I am hoping to go and see my aunt next weekend. I am not sure but we may possibly see the Downton Abbey movie. I have seen it but she loves the series so I would love to see the movie with her. We haven’t celebrated her birthday yet. We just haven’t had our schedules lined up to celebrate or when we do, I don’t have the money to get there. I think she will really like it. Apparently no one expected it to be such a hit movie. They are making a sequel. I am glad. I did so enjoy the series and the movie. It was so fun to go with Jennie and Kathy. I just know it takes days to recover from such an outing.
My nausea hasn’t lessen yet. Even with the latest additional med. so I take zolfran every eight hours like clockwork. Then I take this other stuff twice a day. Generally at five and 11 pm. In between the zolfran hours. I have a test Monday to see what may be causing this. So far the doctor is just saying it is cyclical vomiting syndrome. She wants to see if there is something not working right since my gallbladder has been taken out. It happens sometimes. The scan is later in the evening. Can’t eat or drink after 2pm. I can live with that. It will mess up some meds but not much I can do about that. I will bring them with me to take as soon as possible. I just want to not feel so nauseous all the time. That would be beautiful.
I have been trying to read a lot. Sometimes I can sometimes I can’t. It depends on the pain level for what kind of concentration and focus I have for the day. Sometimes, I am lucky I can focus on teaching the one student I have for that day. If I can’t I have to reschedule them. Fortunately I have very flexible students. They also know I can be flexible back. I wanted to go back teaching full time this fall. Yeah. After having three lessons in a row, I couldn’t focus or concentrate on anything and I had a really bad headache the days I tried to teach more. I guess that is not happening anytime soon. It bums me out. I used to be able to teach 60 students in one week. Now I have 10 and it is all I can handle. It makes me really sad sometimes. Other times it doesn’t bother me. Because I really wanted to go back full time, it is bothering me that I can’t. I think I am stuck in a rut and need to figure out how to get out.
