Do you ever get sick of being sick?

Today is just one of those days where I so tired of being sick.  I feel like I have been sick for so long that many people never knew me when I was healthy.  Last week I had a zoom meeting with a PA on my results of my 360 Health Assessment.  It was interesting.  Hormones affect  so much of bodies and systems.  I really would love  to work with the doctor, I don't have any money to at the moment.  Perhaps in the future. Right now I have much on my plate  and that would push me over the edge.  

I have had a setback in my sleeping upstairs. I almost slept every night for a week in my bed in my room.  The last 2 nights I have had to sleep down here again. I will try again tomorrow.

Dinner is ready.  A made tacos!! Yum.

Music is an Expression of Yourself

I can not remember a time when I haven't heard music in my head.  It also is a good distraction when the pain is extremely high.  It doesn't quite work as well for a distraction when I am getting a blood test, blood pressure test, or botox for migraines, or basically anything with a needle.  I do my best, however, sometimes, it isn't enough at times.  

We were lucky in that our mom really wanted us involved in music.  Band, choir, she wanted us to do it all.  Both of my brothers at one time played the saxophone and trumpet.  I started on flute and switched to clarinet.  I haven't stopped yet.  When I got my wood clarinet, mom said that the day I stop playing it, it goes back to her. Hmmm, I haven't stopped yet.  I don't think I need to worry about that.

One of the first things I teach students is music is an expression of yourself no matter what instrument you play or sing.  It is an easier explanation of what interpertation is.  Interpertation is not something that can really be taught because it is so individualized.  I could play or sing, the exact notes, rhythms, everything as another and still it would not be identical. Why?  We are 2 different people.  I have friends who think it is cool to always have music in my head and some that think it is weird.  It is probably both depending on the day, time, and where I am.  Oh, and pain level.