The World

 I was once told that I look at the world wrong and it doesn't work the way I think it does.  I was also told at the same time that I was a goody two shoes, this was because I choose to speak differently than some of my relatives.  I work with children and they tend to repeat what you say so I think about what I say knowing they will repeat it.

I have always looked at things differently.  I feel things differently than most people I know.  My brain never stops.  In the background is always music playing, it is the soundtrack to the never ending racing thoughts.  

I have always thought in music.  I don't remember when I haven't. I eat, sleep, and breathe music.  

I could, maybe I still can, I don't know, look out a window and instead of seeing my daydreams in my head, I could see them in front of me.  It was like the frame of the window was the outside frame of a movie screen.  I told one of my friends once and she told me that was the weirdest thing she ever heard.  I never told anyone else again. 

It wasn't until several years ago I was tested for ADHD.  I did ask both my brothers if they thought I had ADHD.  They said no.  Unfortunately, both were not correct.  I do have ADHD, which does explain some of the things I do. Not everything, just some.

I can't explain how I look at the world differently, I don't think I do.  I do not think I am a goody two shoes.  I am just me.  My brain does think and work differently.  I don't know mind.  No one else should either.