I am not sure what to say today. So much happened last night that I just don't know what to say. It has left me speechless and I am rarely, if ever, speechless. Needless to say, I need prayers, lots and lots of them for guidance on what to do next. Decisions have to be made and I am not sure which way to go, I really don't know. I can't give any specifics, but they are big decisions and I need lots of prayers to make the right choice. If ever I have needed God's help, this is it.
It has been very hard for me both emotionally and financially since the passing of my mom. I miss her every minute of every day and I suspect I will until I die. I finally now feel like I have some headway and much more sure footing with the financial end of things. I still have the signs up on her bedroom door and mine that say whose room is whose. Mom got confused one day and so I put up a sign so she knew it was her room. It was actually kind of cute how she would read the sign every night so she knew it was her room. I miss the little things like that of her. Most of all, I miss her smile and telling me that she loves me and me telling her how much I love her. See her pictures usually make me smile.
I am very tired tonight. I had to get up early for a doctor's appointment. I had to have several tubes of blood drawn for several different tests. It took 4 pokes today to draw me. It was rather painful since it took so many pokes. Thankfully, they did finally get it done. I have anemia and the doctors can't really find out why. At this point, I do not have an ulcer. It is gone so there isn't any bleeding in my stomach. I take iron now, which is something I couldn't do a few months ago.
I think I will just read for a bit and then go to bed early. I am just so tired from last evening.