Sunday, May 18, 2014

Sunday, A Day of Rest?

It is a quiet Sunday for me.  I have no lessons, which in itself is not too unusual as I often don't have lessons but we have been busy for the last few Sundays so to be home on a Sunday is unusual, very unusual for me.  I am enjoying the peace and quiet, well as quiet as a house can be with a 9 year old boy and a 14 year old girl in it.

Pain level isn't too high right now including my daily headache.  It is about the average pain level.  My right knee has started with something rather weird but that was this morning and seems to be okay now.   Bodies are so weird with fibro, with how the pain migrates from area to area.  It is such a mystery to me how it does that.  I just try to go with the flow.

Yesterday, we had book club.  I try to keep my life as "normal" as I can with this fibro stuff.  I do tend to sleep more than an average person but that is because I wake up every couple hours so I never get a perfect nights sleep.  It is just the way it goes.  I am not up during the day as long as an average person because of my sleep habits but for me, that is okay.  If you don't like it, too bad.  It is my life, my illness, not yours.  So, as I was saying, I try to do interesting things in addition to teaching.  Now, I don't teach as much as I used to, no where near as much as I used to, but I am thrilled I can still teach.  It is hard to remember what I used to be able to do and what I can do now, but whatever, that is the way it has to be.  I have tried to live within my limits and that is what I am learning to do.  Sometimes, I over do it, yes, but that is the way we all learn, right?  The book this month was the Great Gatsby.  I was bored but I got the point of the book.  Star had written some very thought provoking questions that really got us some good conversation.  I like that.  We aren't the book club that talks about the book for 5 minutes and then talks about every thing else too, nope, we talk about the book.  We did talk about the shallowness of the people in the book and compared it to the shallowness of people today, which was very interesting.  Comparing the 1920s to today was interesting.  I was sad that several people had to miss, but with busy schedules these days, we will never pick a day that everyone is available or if we do, it will be a fluke.  The next book was picked by Star, "Lost Lake", by Sarah Addison Allen.  I have it and have been waiting for book club to read it.  Star has read it and loved it.  It was her choice this month.  I really want everyone to choose a book because that adds more flavor to the books we read.  Now, I have to contact everyone and let them know what book we are reading and when we are meeting.  It should be a good time, it always is.

Summer is coming and I am really hoping it isn't too slow with absences as bills must be paid.  That is the bad side of fibro and the lack of being able to work full time.  Stretching money to pay bills.  I am learning to be thrifty.  It is something that my momma tried to teach me over the years but I didn't quite get.  I get it know and I find that I don't want as much materialistic stuff as I used to.  I don't deny myself much.  If I want something, I save for it, just like if I need it.  Right now, I am saving for a couple day vacation to go and see Kathy.  It is something I want to do and I am saving money for the hotel to stay at to see her.  i think we will get pedicures again this year.  I will save for that too.  Maybe manicures too.  I don't know, we will see.  Maybe we will shop for a couple of outfits or something instead or do something we have never done.  I don't know.  It is a toss up but that is why I am saving the money so I can do something and if we don't?  That is okay because the most important thing is for us to be together.  I enjoy going to visit her and her family.  I try to choose a hotel that has a pool so the kids can come and swim.  I prefer one with a restaurant but those cost more so it is okay that I don't because to choose between the pool and the restaurant, I will choose the pool.  There are several restaurants in the area where she lives we can go to together and we do.  Generally, the kids come and swim a bit and then Kathy and I spend time together.  Last year, we borrowed Matthew's game system to watch Game of Thrones and it was a good time.  Then we went out to dinner and watched more Game of Thrones.  Maybe we will do that again, maybe we won't.  It is hard to say with us.  The important thing is being together and having fun.

So far, our weather has not been spring like.  It has either been in the 50s or high 80s.  It is such an unusual year for us, with the super cold winter and the cold spring.  We are about a month behind in the blooming in our plants and I fear the last rose bush my momma planted is dead.  There is no growth what so ever in it.  I am sad as that was one we were keeping as a memorial to my momma but if it is dead, it is dead and there is nothing I can do about it.  Nothing whatsoever.  It is just the way it is.  Heather BT is very good with flowers and plants so I am leaving the outside to her.  She just looks at a plant and it grows.  I have a plant from Maia and Tilley that I got in the hospital last year that is still alive, thanks to her.  I would have either over or under watered it so it would not have survived.  Thankfully, she is an expert and it is thriving well.  I do hope we don't go straight to the super hot weather as I tend to ache more in the extreme heat and the extreme cold.  Both are bad for me but since I am not in charge, I will just have to deal with what we get, I suppose.

Next Sunday is the spring concert.  I am not ready.  I will be by the time it arrives but right now, I am not.  Star is going to make the program, I just have to collect what everyone is playing or singing.  I have a few students who will not be in it, which I expected since it is a holiday weekend and also, there is never a concert everyone will attend.  I am excited about the concert, just not ready for it, teacher-wise yet.  I am trying to keep my anxiety down on this one too so I don't raise my anxiety or my pain level as concerts tend to do both.  i refuse to give in and not do concerts, but I must prepare for the concert a head of time to keep anxiety down.  Anxiety is so annoying at times.

Well, on to either words with friends or cleaning out my drawers.  I am not sure which.

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