First of December

 It is hard to believe that the year is almost to the end.  2020 has been the worst year with the pandemic.  I have learned some things this year.  I learned how to teach online.  That was new to me.  It started off with just Samantha and Alicia.  I was learning a lot.  Then, bam!!!!  All lessons had to be done online.  Yup.  No one in and no one out.  That was so hard at first.  I did okay though as I got used to it.  I started going to a chiropractor in February to see if he could help my headaches.  He has helped some.  The everyday headache is not gone.  I wonder if it ever will.  I finally will have an appointment with a doctor that I have been waiting for since July.  Apparently, my doctor office had the wrong number.  It happens.  I am to call back in a few days.  You know I will.  I am hoping that I will be approved to be getting a pacemaker in my stomach so I may not be nauseated 24/7.  It is awful.  Simply awful.  I take two antinausea meds to conquer this and I still get a lot of nausea.  It will regulate the emptying of my stomach.  That is what my doctor thinks will help the most.  All the rest of my stuff is the same.  I continue to try to live within its boundaries.  I try not to overdue it.

Peony continues to be the joy of my life.  She is such a good dog, a good companion.  When the pain day is high she really is a Godsent.  She seems to know when I feel a lot of pain.  Especially with a bad headache.  

I will put up the little three foot tree up in the living room again this year.  It didn't go up for some reason last year.  I don't know why.  I just don't know.  I need to have Sammy here to help me organize this room better.   It is so unorganized because I need so much music for teaching during the week.  I have two really tall piles of music.  It is crazy.  Just crazy.  

I just have two students today.  Starting next week, one of my Monday students is moving to Tuesday.  It will work out somehow.  It always does.  The ones I have today are two cute little boys.  Their mom and I have been friends since we were teens.  We met in ballet class.  We are both still friends with our first ballet teacher too.  It is neat.  I love facebook for that reason.  I have reconnected to many different people.  People from high school, dance, college, it is just really nice to see how they are doing now.  I am very thankful for the dance studio I went to.  Never once did Karen, the owner and main dance teacher, ever make me feel unwelcomed or I was too fat to dance, her opinion was, you want to learn to dance, I will teach you to dance and I learned.  I loved dance so much.  I was always the biggest one in the class but no one ever made fun of me or bullied me, not like at school.  This was so nice.  Debbie, my first ballet dance teacher really made me feel like I could do anything.  She was so encouraging.  I learned a lot from her as to how I teach.  It isn't that I don't correct my students, I do, it is how you do it.  I had a voice teacher at WSU who constantly belittled me, put me down, called my untalented,  I cried through my voice lessons.  I finally had to have a friend come with me because he was so mean.  Then he was gone for eight weeks.  We had a sub for six weeks.  What a difference in teaching styles.  First off, this man was nice.  He also said he couldn't understand how someone could call my untalented.  He said I was very talented and he wanted me for his choice, bel canto singers.  Unfortunately, my schedule wouldn't allow me to be in it.  I learned so much from him.  He taught me two pieces he wanted me to sing for my jury.  That is a performance exam.  The exam my teacher was not allowed to be in because of his bad behavior towards me.  When my teacher came back, I said the words that the sub teacher told me to say to him when he started to bully me.  It was hard but I did.  There wasn't much time left of the school year.  I really only went to the teacher I was supposed to because I had to.  I went to the sub teacher because I wanted to learn.  He actually taught me those songs.  I got an A on my jury.  One of the teachers asked about how I did this semester.  I told the truth about the sub and the teacher.  I wasn't surprised that the teacher's contract wasn't renewed.  I had finished my four semesters of voice lessons.  I then started taking from Carolyn Grimes.  She was lovely.  I learned so much from her.  Oh my.  My voice really matured when I had her as a teacher.  She was just an amazing person.  I also learned how to teach from her.  I learned how to create lesson plans from my mother and then how to correct students and how to keep their enthusiasm from 
Debbie and Carolyn.  

End of October

 I received a text from a friend to go look on facebook.  I did and then I had to ask where to look.  A friend from High School had passed away from colon cancer.  She and I were not friends in High School but were as adults.  It is horribly sad.  I feel so sad for her family.  Makes you really realize that you don't know from one day to the next what will happen.  Sometime in the next few days the arrangements will be made.  Since it is covid, I will not plan on attending so she can have more of her family attend.  With covid, you have to think of these things now.  

November is just around the corner and with that is the election that I cannot wait to be over.  The absolute hatred that is going on is amazing to me.  What happened to human kindness?  Respecting each other's opinion?  Not anymore.  Now it is more of a you are wrong and I will hate you.  Media of course is lapping this up.  The politicians aren't helping either.  It feels so different from the last two presidential elections.  This is more out of control.  People are just out of control.  It is so unbelievable to me.  I can't wait for it to end.

Tuesday I start the first of the wrappings for the lymphedema on my legs.  We are starting with the right calf.  It is huge.  Simply huge.  I wore the hideous shoes yesterday and will wear them again today.  They are very heavy.  very very heavy.  When I walked upstairs, my hips, lower back, and left knee hurt.  I am skeptical about this now.  I will give it a go though.  I won't know unless I give it a good go.  The huge box will come with me.  She said to use my walker so I will.  

Tomorrow I get my flu shot.  I get it every year.  I have for many years now.  I get it at 9;30 am.  yup.  Nice and early.  I will so come home and sleep.  I also have a rheumatologist appointment at 1:30.  They have moved so I will need to plug in the address to waze to get directions.  I do hope she is on time more than she used to be.  At one time she was, then she wasn't.  

I bought Peony winter socks.  She wouldn't let me put them on her.  She kept pulling her cute little paw away.  She was basically saying no no no.  A thousand times no!!!!  She loves going on walks and has lost a lot of the excess weight so this would make it easier for her to walk when it is colder out.  No, not my dog, she says no.  I will not wear them.  Too bad human!!!!!

 In some ways this year has been faster than last year, in other ways it is crawling by.  COVID still has us by the neck.  Some of us are not allowed in the stores yet.  I am on of them.  I am very high risk with my chronic stuff going on.  I don't mind, if I need music, I just call Annie at her store and she orders it,  When it comes in, she brings it out to me.  It works.  I have most of my students.  I really only lost one and she was brand new to begin anyway.  I do enjoy teaching online.  I love seeing the kids too.  Right now all but 6 are online.  

Fall has arrived.  The temps were beautiful for about a week.  It's a little too chilly right now, mainly because it is raining out,  Always feels cooler when it rains.

Christmas Recital will be very different this year.  I am not sure how this will happen but B says it will////////////////////!  We are going to put on a Zoom Recital this year.

Competition will also be virtual.  New ways to do the old things.  I am teaching through the internet.  Before COVID, who would have thought??  Not me?  I was told several years also that I should look into this teaching online idea.  ICOVID, maybe manners, how important family is.  I don't know.  I shall try to look anything new right in the eye and with a very timid and very scared voice ask how do I do this:?  

Covid 19 Musings

We have been in quarantine for four months. Our State has opened up some. Not everything just some.  I am teaching online. That is a huge change for me. I now have four students who have come back to in person lessons but the majority are online still and will be for a while.  I was luckier than most in that I didn't totally lose my income.  

For the past few months I have been living out a dream.  I have recently been in contact with my sister.  It is a beautiful word. She lives across the ocean from me.  She is from my dad's first marriage and me and my brothers are from the second marriage.  We have had lovely chat.on messenger.  It is so nice to speak with her.  I look forward to many more.

My left knee has been in a fibro flare from hell for several days now.  I have tried cbd cream. It has helped some.  I can't put it on with Peony here as she licks it off.  Yes, it is like, really I need that more than you do.  I will wait until she goes to bed.  On another health front, I will be getting a gastric pacemaker.  I have gastroparisis.  My stomach doesn't digest like it is supposed to.  It takes a really long time to empty.  This will improve this function.  I am waiting on a date for the consoltation.  I hope to.hear from the.hospital soon.

That is about it.  I will leave you with a picture of the adorable one.  Peony

Night before my birthday musings

Tomorrow is 52nd birthday.  It seems weird to me to be this old.  I don't feel different except physically where everything is falling apart. It is a different birthday as we are all quarantined. We can go to get grocies, meds, and doctors.  That is about it.  All my lessons are online.  My students and I often went to get ice cream for my birthday.  I believe we will have cake.  Bill said he will see what he can do.  We are all getting alone for all six of us being home. 

My pain hasn't been horribly bad not has my nausea.  I have been going to a chiropractor.  I have finally found one that didn't flinch when I told him about the hardware attached to my spine. At the first evaluation, he checked my neck and thinks that my daily headache that I have had for 17years is from my neck issue.  He has been working on my neck and adjusting it.  I am pleased with the results.  It hasn't helped the head much but if has helped some of the back issues.

I have, unfortunately, added a new diagnose, cyclical vomiting syndrome.   I now take two anti nausea meds.  One is there times a day and yes, I have to wake up in the middle of the night to take.  The other is twice a day. Despite this new issue, I have in the last year gained 35 pounds of the 70 I had lost.  Party of it was a med.  If you are on protonix for a lo g time you can gain weight, however the majority is due to cookies and bad food choices.  I have improved upon that now.

Peony is doing so good as usual.  She is looking super cute.  I never knew I could love a dog so much. First there was Maisy and now there is Peony.