Musing on a Friday

 I am gathering everything I need for the dreaded taxes.  As someone who works very parttime and is a subcontractor, I have to save all relevant receipts during the year.  My  current issue is I bought music through Amazon and now I need the proof of purchase type thing.  I will be figuring it out shortly.  I want to turn my  stuff in really early this year.  I have been doing better.  I used to have to always send in an extension request  because I didn't gather the stuff in time.  I am trying to have everything ready so when the last thing I expect comes in, off I go to drop off my stuff.  

Online lessons have definitely turned out to be such a good thing.  I am staying online for now until the virus is under control and it is safe to go back to in person.  I have a feeling that several are going to want to stay online though.  It would be fine with me.  Whichever works for them works for me.  I am not picky.  I have two more lessons tonight.  My best friend's daughters.  They are doing very well.  We are getting ready for competition next month.  They are singing two songs each.  There aren't any ensembles this year because it is a virtual competition.  Next year will go back to in person.  It is definitely not safe yet.  

Peony has decided she doesn't like any other dog near me when she is around today.  She growled at Valerian.  I haven't  figured out how to get her to stop being jealous.  I don't know if it is even possible to get that trained out of her.  I have no idea.  I have looked but no such luck so far.  Peony had been not using her back left leg so I took her to the vet.  He subscribed her a med and them she was better.  She is doing that again.  It is not as bad as before so that is good.  We are keeping an eye on it.  That seems to be the thing to do right now.  It isn't everyday or all day, just once in a while.  The vet thinks she may have pulled a muscle in her leg.  It is possible.   

I finally get to see the specialist who will be the one to put  the pacemaker  in my stomach to help it digest properly.  I have been waiting for so long.  I am so glad I finally get to see them.  I have to arrive 15 minutes early as usual for seeing a new doctor.  My gastro doctor did send all my records over to them, so I am sure these are just the insurance type forms and stuff like that.  No big deal  It is about an hour away.  I don't care.  They are the only place who does this around here.  I will drive that hour each way that is for sure.  It will definitely be worth it.  I am anxious to be getting the show on the road.

I also decided that I needed to start working with a therapist for anxiety and food.  I really need the help.  My anxiety is ridiculously high and food, well, I have had issues with food since I was a teen.  I am not doing any bulimia symptoms or anything, but binge eating is bad.  It isn't every day but it happens.  It is horrible and needs to stop.  I need help with stopping.  I can't do it myself.  I have finally admitted it to myself.  I can't.  I started last week with the intake session and next week is the first real session.  I am very anxious about this because well, that is me.  Anxious girl.  I figure if I can get the binging on food in control, I will be able to lose weight and then not eat what bothers my pain level!!!  Won't that be nice?  I thought so too.

That's all for now.  I hope everyone is doing well.