I am going to get a gate for the front door so Mom can't get out. Kathy has a couple (at least one for sure, maybe two). She thinks she has a longer than a door one that I can put at the top of the stairs at night so Mom won't go down without me. I explained it to her and she seemed to understand for now anyways, she will forget soon but I will remind her again. That's what I am here for. She is a happy girl today too. Lily always brightens her up, most of my students do. We are going to see Lily in her play Wednesday night. There is a concert earlier before the play apparently so we will go a bit early to see the little kids. Mom will like that.
I have to really decide what I want to do with my life. Right now, I am just existing and getting by. I don't like that feeling so I have to find new dreams. I think when I lost the store, I lost my dreams. So now I need new dreams. Just existing to take care of Mom is not good. I know she doesn't have any goals anymore, except to help me with mine. I thought a lot last night about it. I want to do what I originally planned before we lost the store. Open a music school. Right now wouldn't be good, but that doesn't mean I can't work on the details of it. I don't want a store again. I am not into the whole renting and selling of instruments, but I loved the teaching part of it. That is what I lived for and the reason I got up in the morning. I live for the moments I get to teach. I am going to continue what I am doing right now, teach a few lessons, hopefully as the economy gets better I will get some more students and then open a school once things have improved. There wouldn't be any point to it right now because lessons are so down because, I mean, really, a choice between lessons and paying bills, right, paying bills wins and I understand that. But in the future! A new school. So I will begin the paperwork that I need to do: business plan, marketing plan, 501 c 3 papers (I plan to open a not for profit one - that way you can work with the libraries and the schools easier) so that in a year or 2 I will be able to move to a small building and begin. I have enough experience with this, I just need the economy to accommodate my plans. So that is the new goal and dream, that I can do. Then, I won't need disability too, I will be able to support myself and Mom, not fancily, but enough for a vacation once a year, unlike now. I feel so much better now that I know what I am going to do with my future.
It is suppose to snow soon, ugh! (except for Christmas Eve and Day, of course) I hope you are having a great day!