Mom had trouble swallowing her donut and muffin this morning.  Not good.  Yesterday it was just the donut.  I won't be getting her donuts anymore.  I am still waiting to hear when the test will be.  I hope this week.  She has to be able to eat otherwise she will waste away.  Right now she is sitting in her chair sleeping, sort of.

Frank will have his lesson tonight.  I am very happy about that.  It has been a few weeks since he had a lesson because of his Mom's work schedule.  He works pretty hard on piano and is planning to accompany Rachel at competition.  Rachel's younger sister, Rebecca, will be taking lessons too and wants to go to competition.  Kayla and Katie are also planning to compete.  I am hoping that the Muglia girls will be competing too since competition is in town this year.  We shall see.  Grace doesn't want to go to competition, which is fine with me.  If you want to go, go, if you don't, don't.  Doesn't matter to me either way, just that if you are going to go, plan on doing a good job.  

I have to go to Evola's Music this week and sign up for the benefit.  We are going to do it around Valentine's Day.  I am very excited about it.  As soon as I have the date I will be working on who is going to be in it.

Pain is medium as usual.  Nothing out of the ordinary.  Just the regular pain for the day.

I hope this finds you doing well and having a good day.

No students this afternoon.  Charlie has a band event.  It would be kind of hard for him to be in two places at once and he is an important part of the marching band.  One of these days Mom and I will go and see him in the band.  I like going to see what my students do.  It is a lot of fun.

I bought Mom her ensure.  She didn't look very happy about it, as a matter of fact she looked kind of ticked at me for buying it.  I will make her drink it until she is back to the weight she is supposed to be.  Her donut was difficult for her to swallow this morning but her muffin went down fine.  I am not sure exactly what to do with this new problem of swallowing.  We should her from the doctor this week when her test will be and then we will go from there.

We will be relaxing this afternoon and sorting bills for the bankruptcy for both of us.  I think I have enough bank statements to finish off the stuff I need to put together.  I am planning to call and make the appointment to file early next week, then it will be over!!!!!!  I can't wait for that.

Pain was medium until I, of course, moved my arm wrong!  Now it really hurts and I had to take another pain pill.  Stupid arm.  My head just has its normal everyday headache.  It will be rather boring the rest of the day.  I hope yours is filled with stuff to do and that you are enjoying your day!

Mom had a doctor appointment this morning with her neurologist.  We haven't been in a year.  Oops.  I didn't realize it had been so long until I made the appointment.  Apparently we missed her last appointment.  I didn't mean too.  Anyways, she is down to 105lbs.  The doctor is not really happy about that, not happy at all.  Mom has to start drinking ensure again.  She is not happy about that but what can I do?  She has to gain the weight back.  Once she is at 120 again, I will take her off ensure, but not until.  Mom also has to take a swallowing test.  Lately different foods (I never know which ones will do it) are difficult for her to swallow.  She says the foods won't go down and get stuck in her throat.  So the doctor's office will call us and let us know when the test is.  I hope it is not too early in the morning.  We all know I am not a morning person.  She isn't happy about all this but too bad, she is going to the test.

In the middle of Grace's lesson she got hungry.  She wanted something to eat, well I didn't have anything for her to eat.  She got mad.  I am now going to get a snack with us at all times in case she gets hungry.  I never know when that will happen because she won't eat enough.  It drives me crazy but I will get the food down her somehow.

Grace is doing well for lessons.  She has learned two hand positions so far and will start a new one in two weeks.  Then she will get the Christmas music too.  She says she loves Christmas music, I do too.

Kayla is going to be absent today, but Rachel should be back so it balances things out.  I hope to have everyone next week.

Pain is medium and the arm is medium too.  I have tried to do some of the exercises and man do they hurt.  I have to have help with them.  I am going to get a heating pad and then try them.

I hope you are having a good day.

Busy day so far today.  We went to a new church this morning.  We have been there once before, but that was for Emily's confirmation.  Mom liked it so we are going to start to attend.  I don't like what time the service is, but I did like it.  it was nice and traditional, the way we like it.  Then I took her to Big Boy for breakfast.  She was hungry and I knew we didn't have any milk so we went and got the breakfast bar.  I am still full from it 4 hours later.  We ran into Peggy and her family there so it was nice to see her.  She used to be one of my best friends in high school.  We aren't really friends because we don't spend any time together, but we aren't enemies, we are more facebook friends which works for me.  It would be nice to do lunch or something some time, but we shall see.

When we got home after breakfast Donna called so we went and met her at Tim Hortons and for the first time, I only got a drink as I was super full from breakfast.  We visited for about an hour then she had to go home.  Her granddaughter Samantha is ill and Donna wasn't really feeling well either.  But it was nice to spend a little time with her.

I have decided that I should put Mom on the Canadian list just in case something happens and it becomes necessary, I don't think it will, but you never know.  It will calm Tillie down and make her feel better, I don't really want her upset either, she is trying to do the best she can for us.  I do think she should listen to me a bit more, but whatever, it isn't worth strife in the family over all this.  I am not, however, going to make Mom go to a day center unless she wants too.  That would be mean and unfair to her.  If I need a break, and yes, sometimes I do, I can call someone here and they will come and stay with her or I can take her to their home and go out for a while on my own.

Pain is high for some reason today.  Don't really know why.  My arm hurts more than the shoulder which is kinda weird, but hey, what can I say, I have a weird body.  I hope this finds you well and having a great afternoon and evening!!!!!!

I had Lily's lesson this afternoon.  She is soooooo cute and adorable and much more interested in singing than she was in piano.  I love listening to how all my students weeks go and what they did and are planning to do.  She is excited about going to camp this week.  She won't miss any lessons either so she is actually happy about that.  She is doing pretty well and is remembering most of the time to keep her eyebrows up.  (An important vocal technique, lifts the muscles which help lift the soft palate to open your throat to let the air in).  We are working on airflow too.  She doesn't want to compete this year which is fine by me.  I don't care if my students do or don't, it is completely up to them.

Pain is high in the shoulder though.  My arm sort of burns today.  My head is normal (the usual daily headache - the one no one can do anything about).  I had to take another pain pill for it.  I try to limit them to nighttime, that's when I really need it, but I couldn't take it anymore.

We are trying a new church tomorrow, Lily's.  We have been there before for her sister Emily's confirmation, but we are going to just a regular service.  It has been a long time since we have regularly been to church and we are very unhappy with the one I grew up in, so we are trying.  The only drawback is that they go to the 9:00 am service, so I have to get up early, and we all know how I am not a morning person.  I will definitely be taking a nap tomorrow.  Mom misses going to church on a regular basis so I hope she likes the church and we will go every week.

I hope this finds you doing well and having a good week.  To Sarahbear - I hope you are feeling sooooooo much better soon!!!!!!  Less pain!!!!

We had sewing this afternoon!!!  What fun!!!!  I think I am over my upset from my visit with my cousin.  I just think they should spend some time with Mom at home before they tell me she will need a nursing home soon.

Lydia was at her grandmother's today so she wasn't there for sewing.  Hannah finished her top and Natalie is getting closer.  Hannah wants to make another top only a little more complicated one.  Good choice for her.  She did a good job.  Natalie and Lydia are doing very well with their tops too.

Not much going on today, just sewing and then we got something to eat.  We each took 1/2 of our dinner home so we have dinner for tomorrow night!  They give such big portions that often we take the rest home for the next night.

I talked to Donna tonight for almost an hour.  She wants me to take my facebook page down.  I wish people would stop telling me what to do, it's not a good week for that.  I like facebook, yes, my younger brother totally misunderstood one of my posts, but over all I have not had any problems with it and I have reconnected with several friends that I haven't talked to in years.  So over all, I like it.  I will just be more careful on what I post.  I wonder what she would think of my blog.  Probably not much, but I won't be asking!

Pain is a little high for the day.  It's been one of those kind of weeks!  I hope your week is better than mine and in less pain if you have any!

I just got back from the doctor's office.  This was my family doctor, not a specialist, I see my rheumatologist Thursday.  I accidentally made mom's appointment with her neurologist at the same time, oops!  I tried to call and reschedule, but the office is closed today so I will call tomorrow.  I have one student this afternoon, possibly two.  I hope so anyway.  I am not sure what time Frank will have his lesson and I haven't heard from his mom yet today.  Charlie will be here regular time for his lesson.

I got an xray for my shoulder at the doctors.  I am sure they won't find anything, it probably is just fibro.  That was what I think anyway.  The doctor will let me know if anything is wrong.

We got our passports so we can go to Windsor tomorrow.  I am happy about that.  We will be transferring some money to our bank account to pay our house payment and our taxes.  Finally, we will not be behind on anything.  We will be up to date again.  With the house payment going down, we will be able to stay on top of things as long as no emergency pops up.

Pain is medium high this afternoon.  Might have something to do with the fact I moved my arm wrong after I had my xray.  I am so graceful, yeah right.  My head is normal, with its normal headache.  I have one everyday, it never goes away.  Nothing any doctor can do about it either.

I hope you are having a good day.  I am going to play with my DS lite now.  I love that game.

It looks like it is about to downpour here.  Thank goodness we aren't going anywhere for the rest of the day.  I have had 2 lessons so far and am waiting for 1 more.  She is running behind because Mom's dentist appointment went later than expected.  No problem, she is on her way.  Rachel is absent today because of strep throat.  Please stay home and get better.  Oprah is on!  I love her show.  She has some very interesting guests.  Some have lived through some horrific things in their lives.  They are so inspiring.  Today is Mike Tyson.  He is not inspiring that is for sure.  He has lead a very weird life.  Not one I would want to live.

Our passports will be here tomorrow.  I am excited about that.  We will be able to go to Windsor and see some relatives and get some money out of the bank to help catch up us on bills.  That is very exciting for me because I am tired of being behind and the phone calls.  I will also be able to file for the bankruptcy as well as Mom.  Like I have said before, when we lost the store, we lost almost everything.  Thank goodness we still have the house.

Pain level is medium high right now.  When I am teaching it doesn't seem to be as high as when I am not.  I have a doctor appointment tomorrow and a blood test.  I hate blood tests.  They hurt so much, not so much the needle as the tourniquet.  That hurts the most because of the fibro.

I hope this finds you doing well and in less pain if you have any.

We went to Port Huron after Katie's lesson this afternoon.  There is an awesome craft store there that we love.  I wanted to get some Christmas crafts that I think Mom can do.  We bought to packages of kits.  I think they will turn out cute.  They are pretty simple to do so she shouldn't have too much trouble with it.  After that we stopped at a restaurant we have been too before, but it wasn't as good.  The food was cold by the time you got to your table.  (It was a buffet restaurant).  I don't think we will go there again.  Definitely not worth it.  

Katie did pretty well with her lesson.  She is getting over a cold and no voice for a week.  She is a junior in high school but she is taking some college classes so I think that is neat.  She goes to the community college for both her high school classes and her college classes.

I tried to call Richard again, but he didn't answer.  I haven't heard from him at all.  He didn't even answer my email.  Mean big brother.  It has been a month since I have spoken to him.  I hope he has either found a job or will find one soon.  It sucks to be out of a job, I know.  It has been over a year since I lost my store and outside of the few lessons I teach, I have no job.  I don't know what I would do with Mom if I could get one.  Right now I am on disability so that is helping a lot.  It is not much, but it adds up with teaching.   I would prefer to either have another part time job and teach or teach full time, unfortunately I am not really well enough for that right now.  Maybe by spring I will be better.  They are supposed to come out with some new medicine that will help fibro fog, which is a big problem for me.  We shall see and hope.

Pain is medium, shoulder is medium for a change.  Brain fog mild for a change too.  I like this day.  I woke up at 11 am and then reset the alarm for 11:30, Mom didn't interrupt as much as she has the last few days, so it was good.

I hope you are enjoying your day and things are doing well with you!

It is a boring day now.  I have finished two lessons and we went to Tim Horton's for a snack/breakfast at about 2:30pm.  We are back home again.  Mom is somewhat better today than yesterday, but still a little teary for me.  Winter is not going to be fun with her.  Not that she does well at anytime of the year with weather, it's either too hot or too cold.  She paranoid of both.  Right now she has her fall jacket and hat on in the house.  It is not cold in here, but she won't take them off because she thinks she will get cold.  I am not touching that one.  Let her leave it on and then boil with them.  Eventually she will take them off at least in time for bed.

My patience level is at an all time low these past few days.  It is hard dealing with her when I can't do a lot of stuff.  She is difficult to entertain because she can't remember how to do stuff, but wants to do things, we just don't know what.  She is now taking her coat off, finally.  She still has the hat on though.  I think in a while we will go to the bookstore and look around.  Maybe, we will see.

Lily was so cute during her lesson, she is working on keeping her eyebrows up when she sings.  It is a small thing, but makes such a difference in the sound.  She is also working on airflow.  So far she likes all the songs she has song but one.  She didn't like the Kerry Dance at all.  Not one little bit.  But she did finish it so I was happy.

Aggie had her lesson too, she is working on her audition music for MSU.  Her voice is starting to change again, getting stronger and more mature.  She should get in the music minor program no problem, but she can't stop practicing her music or she won't get in.

Pain is medium right now.  The shoulder is unhappy as usual and so is the knee.  I am a bit stiffer than usual because it is getting colder out.  I don't mind the fall weather, it is winter that isn't so good, snow looks real pretty, but it sometimes makes me ache more.

I hope this finds you doing well.

It was sewing day today.  It was hard to get out the door because Mom was freaking out.  I just don't have the patience with her today.  She wanted her red little jacket with the hood, but it is cold out and she would have froze.  So I had her put on her purple jacket with a hat so she would be warm, but no that isn't good enough, she wanted the red one too to put over her purple.  She looks ridicules with that on like that and it doesn't help at all.  She kept waking me up all morning, taking her clothes off and then asking me what she should wear.  I answered and showed her what to wear, then she went and changed.  It was not my morning with her.  I was very tired and was being drove crazy.

I was very glad we went to Muglia's because I could calm down.  She was bored though, but she can't remember enough to do something with sewing.  It is frustrating for her, but I don't know what to do.  I take suggestions!  Anybody??????

The girls are almost finished with their tops, Hannah is the closest to being down.  She has the neck and the sleeves hems to be done and then she is finished.  Lydia and Natalie are about half done.  I am so proud of them.  They all are doing such a good job and very patient with me as this is the first time I have ever taught sewing and of course, I have screwed up some.  But they are wonderful about my mistakes.  I am so grateful for them.  It makes my day to go and help them make some clothes.  They are already thinking about the next outfit they want to make.

I am calmer now than I was this morning, thankfully.  Usually I have very little problem dealing with Mom, but not this morning.  

The pain is medium right now.  This morning was pretty high, so that could be why I had no patience.  My shoulder isn't any better but today it isn't worse so I am glad about that.

Today is my high schools homecoming and it is raining, just like it did 23 years ago.  I remember marching with the band in the rain.  I hope they have fun, we did despite the rain.

I hope you are doing well, even if it is raining where you are!