no lessons day

I received a phone call a while ago from Rick, my student.  He is stuck at work and will not be able to have a lesson tonight.  I am bummed about that but what can I do.  He will be gone until May 18 when he will resume his lessons.  Charlie will have his lesson on Friday instead of tonight because of a school event.  I am so thankful he makes up lessons.  He rarely misses a lesson, he prefers to make them up.  What a great student.

I am very tired this afternoon.  I did take a brief nap.  I just couldn't stay awake anymore.  Right after I got up is when Rick called to cancel lessons.  I am just relaxing this afternoon.  I have things I could do, but I just don't feel like it.  I have some pictures to look at this afternoon.  One of the photo albums I rescued in November does indeed have family pictures in it.  Yup, good pictures would have been thrown away.  Not good.  This is why I must be present when stuff is going through.  I just have to.  Too much has been thrown away or donated that should have been kept.  Thankfully, it seems that they have no interest in doing anymore in my house.  I am grateful for that.  I want to know what exactly I have and I will decide what I do or don't want.  I don't need someone to decide for me.  I have had too much decided for me and I need to take control.

It is suppose to rain for the next few days again.  Ugh, that means I won't be able to go the storage unit and get more stuff out.  Maybe in between showers will work.  I guess I will find out depending on the weather.  Right now the weather is just humid and warm but the storms are heading here.  We are under a tornado watch until 10 pm.  Yuck, fortunately, it has been a very long time since we actually had a tornado here.  We did have some damage about 2 miles north of me last year from a really bad storm.  I hope the storms pass us by without any damage.

Pain is a bit more in the arms today then normal.  I don't really know why except the weather is not nice for pain but it is rare that my arms hurt, both of them.  My head is normal, thank goodness.  It is a more than normal missing Mom day.  She is on my mind a lot today.  I just miss her so much all the time and today more than usual.

I do hope you are having a good day.

musings for the day

Easter was a good time (even with the 3 hour little nap).  Unfortunately, I still am having trouble sleeping between the hours of 2 am and 5 am.  If I am asleep before that then that is a good night, but I often wake up around that time and then I can't go back to sleep.  It is fear that is keeping me awake.  We live in a safe neighborhood, we have been lucky enough not to have a break in in many, many years.  I think I was very young the last time and it was neighbor children who were doing.  Every little noise in the house just stabs fear in me between those hours.  I don't know why.  It is just those hours.  I need to fix this and I don't know how.  I am open to suggestions!  I have every door blocked (2 of them have the recycle boxes in front of them mainly for lack of a better place to keep them) the other is blocked only at night.  It isn't like I expect a break in, it is just I have never lived by myself before.  This is really cramping my sleep and I have a hard time sleeping in the first place because of pain.  I have done things to secure the house as best as I can.  I know I am partially deaf, but I can hear enough to know if someone were in the house or not.  If someone spends the night, I sleep pretty well and am not in fear.

Anyways, outside of that major issue, I am doing alright today.  (During the day, I am fine, it is the night that gets me)  I had a good day yesterday.  I got to see Kathy both Saturday and Sunday so that was the best.  I got good hugs from her little ones.  The girls are very good huggers.  Today is just 2 lessons.  I am hoping that by fall I will have more but that is still 4 months away.  I can't wait for May!  Less rain!  More sunshine!!

Gas is getting really high again.  The last time this happened we lost the store.  I do hope I don't lose anymore students like I did back then.  I will be in a big pickle if I lose any students.  I am thankful I don't drive very far.  I do need to get gas tomorrow though as it is less than a 1/4 tank and I don't like it below 1/2 tank.  My trip to Belle River used a 1/4 tank of gas.

We are getting much rain today.  Since I am spending the day inside, I don't mind.  Apparently, it will rain again tomorrow with 50 degree temperatures.  Boy the news is not so good.  I usually only watch the 7 pm one but I was watching Oprah.  I don't always watch that show, but when I remember I like the show.

I have Army Wives info on my facebook.  I love that show (apparently so do some of you!) There will be a new episode next Sunday, thank goodness!  I have to eventually watch the entire season 4 that I have on DVD.  Yes, I have skipped season 4, not because I won't like it, I know I will, I just haven't been able to remember to watch it when i have time.  I also love the shows NCIS!  They are soooooo good too!  That is about the most of the TV shows that I am addicted to.  I do like Dancing with the Stars but if I miss it, it isn't the end of the world.  Plus, I never get to see the results show because it is on at the same time as NCIS.

anyways, it has been a good day.  I just have my Emily for her lesson later this evening.  She is such a cutie!!!  I do hope you are having a good day too!

Happy Easter!!!

I went to Kathy's Parents for the afternoon.  Boy was it fun.  I had gotten her children some Easter treats and the best part, there is none left for me!  Since I didn't want temptation, I am so glad it worked out perfectly that there were no candies left!  I have enough junk food in the house that I don't need anything else.  Her girls were dressed in their Easter dresses that Samantha had picked out for the girls.  She is definitely going to be a fashion girl!  The dresses were really cute.  Samantha did a great job picking them out.  Samantha went and changed shortly after I got there.

Dinner was soooooo good.  I have to say that Mrs. Knight out did herself as usual.  She is a good cook that is all I have to say about it.  I am glad I went.  When I got home I took a little (3 hour) nap.  I have been so tired lately again, more than usual.  I don't know why.  I suppose it could be the new medicine.  I am so thankful that I can sleep in tomorrow!  That might be the problem for the last few days because I have had to be up early for the last 4 days, although, I would get up early everyday for these type events no problem!  Anytime I get to hang out with Kathy, is a great day plus my students, I mean, how cool is that?  Very.

Tomorrow will be a regular day.  I will have 2 lessons for the day.  Bob and Emily.  I told Aggie all about Emily.  She is anxious to meet her and her parents.

Kathy is looking at their schedule to see when they can come and clear out the storage unit.  I am hopeful we can do it in one day since I will be going every few days to organize what I want and what I don't.  There isn't much that I want so that is okay.  There are some boxes for the business I need to keep and a few other boxes, other than that, I want my keyboard that is in there and the rest can go.  I don't want anything else.  I will get a few boxes tomorrow.  There are a couple of boxes of writing books in there too at least I think they are in there.  I will find out tomorrow when I go.  I plan to get about 6 boxes tomorrow and then 6 more each trip until I have what I want out of the unit.

It has been a medium pain day so that is normal.  My head is the normal pain today.  I am just more tired than usual.  There is no Army Wives on tonight either.  I am rather disappointed as I love that show.  I have movies I do need to watch, Narnia, Harry Potter, Tangled.  I watched the Barbie movie of Rapunzel today.  It was really cute.  Samantha and Alicia got it for Easter today.  They are really cute movies.  Even Jake was watching although he would not admit it.  It was pretty funny to watch him watch the movie casually, like he just happened to be in the room and not really watching the movie.  Matthew wasn't even in the room while that movie was playing.  I wasn't surprised on that.  He was down in the basement playing video games or something like that.  After the Barbie movie we started watching Singing in the Rain.  We all love that movie.  The girls, Kathy, her parents, Jake, and I that is.  Matthew does not like that movie so he was not happy to have to be upstairs for a few minutes before we left.  We all left about 3 pm.  I came home and went right to bed, I was so exhausted.

All in all, it was a great day, a really good day.

saturday excitement

I ended up with 2 instead of the 3 lessons, but when I woke up I wasn't even aware of the other lessons so it was a good surprise.  I knew Aggie was coming home for the weekend, I just didn't know she was going to have a lesson until I got up.  We couldn't have it at 2 like she wanted because I wasn't going to be home yet, so we ended up having it at 4.  Now all lessons are done for the day.  Amanda rescheduled hers because she is ill today.  That is just fine, I don't mind the reschedule.  It is better than the cancellation.  Totally better.  I do hope she feels better though because having a cold is a drag.  You feel so horrible the first few days of it.  Ugh, I had two this winter and am hoping I am done with the until next winter.  I had two really bad ones too.  Kayla has decided to sing "When Love Is Kind" with Amanda for the concert.  She isn't sure if she wants to sing another piece or not.  That is fine I told her.  It is completely up to her and what she feels comfortable with.   I am looking forward to the Spring Concert this year.  We will have to have a summer one because the Muglia girls won't be able to be in the concert and neither will Christine because of other commitments and a new baby brother for the Muglia girls.  Having a late Easter really messed me up schedule wise this year.  Oh well, not really that big of a deal.

I have a bit more of a headache now than usual.  I am not sure if it the weather or not.  It's hard to say.  So many are in flares right now so it is really hard to say.  It is a normal missing mom day.  Tomorrow will be a bit harder as it will be the first Easter without her.  These firsts are so hard at times.  I got through Christmas pretty okay and since I will be with Kathy, I know I will get through it.

Charlie did such a nice job at the trimming of the bushes.  He really did.  They look amazing and so much nicer.  I will be having him do them again in a few months to keep them looking just so.  He really did a great job.  We will be returning the trimmer to Bob on Monday.  I am so grateful and thankful that he loaned them to me.

It is so nice outside today that I wasn't even wearing a spring jacket.  Nope, just my sweatshirt and fleece pants.  Kathy and I went to the mall and put the scooter together.  It wouldn't work.  Apparently, there is a wire that is coming apart.  We can see how it is supposed to go together, but we couldn't get it together.  I have the number to call for service.  I hope it doesn't cost too much.  I think that is the problem because the batteries are fully charged so it has to be that wire.  I have to have a scooter that is reliable.  We did see another lady at the mall with a scooter and Kathy wanted to (me too) ask if she put it together herself because it was almost too heavy for Kathy to lift.  It took the two of us to put it together too.  I simply could not do it myself.  That is for sure.  It is 45 pounds for the back end alone plus the front end and the two batteries.  Those batteries are very heavy.  Thank goodness they work well - the batteries I mean.  I think once the wire is fixed it will be okay.  I will find out this week.  Just what I need a broken scooter.  Not cool, not cool at all.  I sat in the courtyard area while Kathy went to the Disney Store.  She came back empty handed because they didn't have the toy she wanted for the girls.  We think they will find them in Disney World when they go in June.  Then the girls can get Pascale, the little chameleon from Tangled.  He is very cute.  It will probably also mean a lot to them to get it there.  I know when I buy stuff from there as opposed to a store it often means a bit more.

Well, other than the head, I am doing all right today.  I can't wait until tomorrow, but I will have too.  I am also exhausted at this point so early to bed I will be going.  I do hope you have a great day and a Happy Easter too!

tired

I am rather tired now.  I got up early to get the trimmer for Charlie.  He finished all the trimming today.  He spent about 5 or so hours all together.  It looks great.  So much better than before.  I can smile as I come up to the front of my house.  I am very excited about it.  I am so happy with what he did.  What a great job is all I can say.  However, because I needed to get the trimmer, I am a bit tired tonight.  I plan to head for bed rather soon.

Tomorrow will be such an awesome day!!!!  I will teach my two lessons, which will be good and then...I get Kathy!!!!  We are heading to the mall too!!!  I have my scooter in the trunk ready to go.  I even know where the key is!  (attached to the car key ring)  Afternoon 1 with Kathy.  It will be so awesome.  We are going to eat first and then to the mall to the Disney store.  I haven't been in the Disney store for about 2 to 3 years as we have gone to Disney world itself, no need to go to the Disney store.  I miss buying mom cute Disney stuff.  I really do.  She would just get so excited about it too.  When we were in Disney in 2008, I couldn't find any, I mean any, of her t-shirts that I had bought her the year before to bring with us.  Basically, I packed her some jeans and 2 t-shirts with all the necessary under clothes.  When we got to Disney world I needed to buy her a new t-shirt everyday we were there because she didn't have clean clothes.  She was so cute about it to.  I did bring her hoodie jackets with us, but she didn't really need them too much until we went inside.  It rained a lot though while we were there.  Everyday, sometimes, all day.  Yeah, June in Florida is not pleasant with the rain.  We wore our ponchos all the time.  We did have a good time.  Had I known that it would be Mom's last trip ever and my last trip for a really long time, I would have had us stay a few days longer.  I really would have but I couldn't see the future.  If I could I would have run and hid because in August 2008 the bank came and took the store, all of it.  They even sold the fixtures.  Yeah, we lost everything so I think I would have hid from the future.  I gave the Muglia girls some of her hoodies that she barely wore, if ever.  I did give them the Disney ones too but I did tell them she wore some of them.  They didn't care.  They were clean, that is all that matters.  I also wish I took more pictures of her while we were in Disney too.  Here are a couple of the pictures we did take.

As you can see, we had a great time with our character meals.  It was definitely the best way to eat meals.  Mom and I loved Disney World.  It will be hard to go again without the little lady.

I do hope you are feeling well today and looking forward to have a great Easter.

thursday

I had Breanna's lesson earlier today.  She is doing very well.  She is almost ready to start learning a new hand position in piano.  She is slowly learning how to read the notes faster, which is simply wonderful.  She picked her 2nd voice solo for the spring concert.  She will sing "The Sound of Music".  I adore that song.  I love it so much.  I love the movie too.  Before Christmas I had the TV on and a movie started showing the Alps in Austria and I thought, wow, that looks like the Sound of Music, well, I was right!  So I just stayed where I was and watched the entire for the I don't know how many times.  The first time I saw it I watched it with Momma.  She bought the record for me too so I could learn all the songs (much to my brothers dismay!).  Momma and I would play that record over and over again.  When the VHS came out and we had a video player, Mom bought the movie.  Then on her 70th birthday, we got it on DVD.  I still have it.  I love watching it on TV, especially without commercials.

tomorrow I am going to cook the last of the corned beef.  I have a whole brisket to cook in the crock pot.  I just love corned beef.  I often get it for lunch meat at the store when grocery shopping.  It is soooooo yummy.  I bought 2 of them before St. Patrick's Day.  It was the first time I had seen any at the grocery store this year.  I wish they sold it all year round, but I can deal with it just during March and April.  I am going to put red potatoes in too.  I have some left.  Yum!  It will be a good dinner for the next few days.  I will split it up and then I will freeze the other portions.

I don't have anything but potential housework for the rest of the evening.  I don't have anymore lessons for the day.  I did go to the used bookstore for a few more books.  I do hope they are good.  They sound very good.  I brought some books back to them too that I didn't want to keep.  The problem is that I usually want to keep the books I purchase so it is hard to have trades but right now I have 5 more trades so that is good.  I can't wait until all the books are in the family room in the library part of the family room.  It will be awesome!  Now that tax season is over, I can speak with Julie and we can plan when we are going to do this.  I don't know why some of the books were even taking off the other book shelf, but they were.  I am keeping all those books and I said so at the time they were taking off the shelf.  I said I was keeping them and to leave them there, but they were moved anyway.  Now they will go back where they belong.  I have a lot of history books and biographies too as well as novels.  One year, I gave up reading novels for Lent.  Now I am not Catholic (I am Methodist), but it seemed like a good idea.  Mom was the only one who thought I would be able to do it because I read all the time.  My brothers both thought I wouldn't be able to do it.  Let me tell you, that was the hardest Lent Season ever!  I did, however, survive and that was when I discovered the history books and the biographies so it turned out to be a good idea.  On Easter Sunday, I told the family to leave me be I was going to read all day!  I think I did read most of the day too.  Even though at the time I did most of the cooking, Mom always did the cooking on the holidays.  She was an excellent holiday cook.  When it came to turkeys or anything special like that, it was awesome!  I did learn a bit about holiday cooking from her, but I am thankful that Mrs. Knight will be doing the cooking!  I am thankful for that.  I am bringing Easter treats for the children.  I am excited about doing that.

I have regular pain level today so I am glad.  I do hope this finds you well too!!!

oh my!

I got a call from my brother yesterday.  We have a new issue to deal with and we both need prayers about it.  I can't go into details about here, needless to say, it is frightening for (I think) both of us, I know it is for me.  So please, pray for us.

Other than the newest upset, it has been an okay day.  I didn't wake up at 5:30 like yesterday, thank goodness!  I woke at my regular time, noon or so.  I had the regular type sleep, up and down with pain every few hours, but overall, a lot better than yesterday.

My young man, Carson, wants to add piano to his lessons.  I am excited about that.  He is 8, which it is a great age to learn.  I called his grandmother to let her know I would pick up the music and she was shocked, she didn't know that he asked for piano lessons too.  He is such a cutie.  He sings very nicely.  We started one new song today, Peace of the River.  I actually had 2 songs for him to start, but the printer was being a horrible printer today so it didn't go well.  I had shut down the computer so it didn't print until after his lesson.  Oh well, I have it for next week.  I can't find the book that I got the songs out of last week anywhere.  I am wondering if I put it in Calli's bag.  She has the other copy of the book and I am wondering if I accidentally put them both in her bag.  It is just not anywhere in the dining room or the living room.  No more lessons tonight.  I only have Carson.  Tomorrow I have Breanna and that is it too.  It is a bummer only having 1 or 2 lessons a day, but I am very THANKFUL for the few that I have.  It is starting to get better.  I am hoping summer lessons stay the same as they are right now.  The new ones are the question marks.  Bob, Charlie, Katie all have lessons all year round so I am hopeful that all my students only take off lessons for vacations.  We shall see.  I also do hope to go and see Richard this summer, all depends on what happens now for us.

I can't wait to see Kathy this weekend.  I get to see her on Saturday and Sunday.  I mean, that is just awesome!  I don't get to see her very often since we live so far apart from each other but I will see her twice this weekend!!!  Yeah!!!

I got the movie Tangled for my birthday from my aunt and uncle.  I was very happy about that.  I plan to watch it this weekend.  I also now have the movies, harry potter part 1 and Narnia.  I couldn't resist.  They were on sale.  I am doing pretty well with this thrifty thing.  I plan to do better.  I write down everything I spend so I have been keeping better track of it.  I discovered that I spend a lot on going out to eat for brunch at Tim Horton's and other places so I have bought brunch food and am trying to keep the cost down as I can't really afford to keep doing that.  I am excited to be closing the storage unit too, as this will allow the money to go to other bills that need to be paid.  I also am saving for a nook.  I really like them and am chomping at the bit to get one.  I put a few dollars away each month to save for it.  I figure between now and Christmas, I will have enough money to get one.  I am getting much better at saving money.  I hope to be an expert like my mother was.  She was the best at this.  If there was something she wanted, she simply saved up the money to pay cash.  I, not being of a patient nature, would charge it first and pay later.  Well, this cash only life that I lead is actually good for teaching patience.  I am, however, getting bombarded with requests to get a new credit card.  Yes, I am totally staying away from that.  It is just not a good idea to get a new one, plus with the bankruptcy not dissolved yet, I don't want a new one at this point in my life.  I will possibly look into to it in months to come as things (hopefully) improve.

I have medium pain today and the headache is its normal pain level.  Sometimes it is really annoying to have a headache everyday that nothing can be done for.  Doctors just can't do anything about the chronic headache, or at least the neurologists that I have seen have told me.  They can do something about it when it gets bad, but that only puts it back to normal pain level.  The rest of the pain is normal too.  The Melixicam (spelling??) seems to be working as well as the Celebrex did so that is good.  My hips feel so much better than before I tried Celebrex.

I do hope this finds you doing well too.

a different Tuesday

I woke up the first time at 3:30 with a thirst for milk.  I don't know why, but I wanted a glass of milk so I got up and went downstairs for my glass of milk, well, actually, 2 glasses of milk.  I was very thirsty.  Then I went back to bed.  I woke up again at 5:30 am.  I was wide awake.  I have no idea why.  I was also a bit cold.  I went downstairs and got something to drink and turned on the computer.  I had to post that I was awake at that time on facebook since it is such a rarity for me to be up that early.  I went back to bed about an hour later and got up again around noonish.  I was really dozing, rather than sleeping well from that point on.  My bottom sheet and blankets are all twisted on my bed.  I have to practically remake me entire bed so that I can get to sleep.  I do hope I sleep better tonight.  I am not up for another sleepless night.

It has been an okay day, great day for the lessons I had.  Charlie and Rick are both doing well.  Both were slightly late today for some reason.  Oh well, they still had their full lessons.  It actually worked out well that Rick was a bit late because of traffic since Charlie was a bit late.  Charlie is working mostly on what he is going to play for the spring concert.  Rick will not be in the spring concert as he will be out of town until very late the night before the concert.

I plan to watch NCIS tonight, both shows.  I love them so much.  I miss watching them with Mom but at the end she couldn't watch them since she thought they were real.  I think I have seen every episode this season.  I have the first 6 seasons on DVD.  I didn't get the DVDs of season 7 because I have seen most of them and I really can't afford them plus the USA channel plays reruns all the time so I can get my NCIS whenever I want.  I won't be getting season 8 either.  I will be loaning the first couple of seasons to Kathy for her son Matthew because he has become interested in the show now that he is 12 almost 13.  He likes the show so I am going to loan him so old seasons to see if he likes it.

I did have a bit of a bad headache earlier today, but now it is back to the normal headache.  I do hope this finds you doing well and having a good day.

A Lovely Monday

I was so exhausted this morning that I stayed in bed and dozed for a while.  When I finally got up, I was a bit dizzy but that passed.  It happens a lot and I know it is just a side effect of the medicines that I take.  I went down and had some brunch and took my daytime medicines.  Today is the first day for the substitute for Celebrex.  I am hopeful it will work out well.  So far, it is doing alright.  It is a bit of a chilly day so it is definitely a good day to try it.  I have been a bit chilled all day.

Bob had his regular lesson this afternoon.  He is doing very well.  He, again, took my trash bins to the road for me.  He is so nice.  He is also going to check to see if he has a trimmer for the bushes since both of mine are broken.  This will help Charlie a lot this coming weekend.  I will find out later this week.  I would return it next Monday after Charlie uses it on the weekend.  Charlie is coming again Saturday to do the shrubs.

After Bob's lesson I went to Walmart for some milk and bread.  I went to make a sandwich and realized I didn't have any bread.  I picked up a few things and the came back home.  Nothing to exciting, some Easter treat bags for the Heyart children.  I am making some Easter treats for the kids for Sunday.  I am so thankful I am going to Kathy's parents house for the holiday.  I am thankful to be included in their holiday dinner.  I think I have enough candy for the kids.

Emily had her 3rd lesson this evening.  She is such a doll.  She is so cute and is playing very well.  Next week she starts reading music!  That will be exciting for her.  Her eyes were wide with excitement when I told her that we would be learning lines and spaces next week.  Because of this we added the Treble Clef Sign and the Bass Clef Sign flashcards to the flashcard pile.

Not much happening this evening.  I am going to watch Dancing With The Stars in a bit when it comes on and then head for bed.  Tomorrow is 2 more lessons so that is wonderful.  They don't really start until 5:30 though, so I have the afternoon to get some housework done.

I am so glad that tax season is almost over because that means soon we will be starting on the Family room.  My sewing corner will be a reality.  I am excited about that.  The library will be there too.  I am bringing the bookshelf that is in the living room back down in the family room.  I will move the shelf that is in the dining room back into the living room and that is where the kids toys will be.  I need the bookshelf back downstairs because I have books that need to go on it.  I love reading and I love books so I have plenty.  I don't plan to get rid of any of my books that are in the family room.  I will also put the writing books back on the shelves too.  They are in the storage unit right now so they need to come back.  Next month the storage unit will be closed.  I am anxious to be done with that.  There are about 4 to 6 business boxes that I have to keep and I will put those in the garage.  I am not going to get a different storage unit because they are very expensive and rather unnecessary since I have a garage.  I will also be figuring out a way to sell the fibro cook books that I have in the garage.  Andrew and I wrote them in 2005.  Some of the front info (not the recipes) are outdated because of new testing and studies.  I have about 800 of them left.  Yeah, that is a lot.  I do hope to sell some, if not all of them some day.

One the TV is all about Prince William and Catherine's wedding.  I remember being so fascinated with Princess Diana.  I got up super early to watch the wedding.  I also got up super early to watch Prince Andrew and Sarah's wedding too.  I am not sure if I will get up at 5:30 am to watch the wedding.  I imagine it will be played over and over all day long.  We shall see if I am awake enough for the wedding in 11 days.  (The TV told me that.  I had no idea)

I am going to watch Dancing with the Stars now then off to bed.  I am a bit tired now.  I have been very tired since Saturday.  I think the stress of the day made me very exhausted.  I do have a bit of a bad headache again today.  I do hope it is a good day for you and less pain!

so tired today

I am so tired today.  I don't know if it is because of the long day yesterday or the stress of yesterday, but I am exhausted today.  There were so many desserts yesterday that I ended up bringing home almost the entire yellow cake.  The chocolate one was the shape by I don't care for chocolate cake so I left it.  I really shouldn't have made them, it was a waste of my time and my money.  I wasn't very happy about that but next time, I will not make anything.

I also got called a goody two shoes yesterday which did not make me feel very good.  I was actually really mad with the tone of the voice that was used to call me that.  So now, I am a spoiled brat and a goody two shoes according to Tillie.  I don't find that funny nor do I think it is true.  They were not said in a complementary tone either.  Andrew agreed with the good two shoes comment.  Yeah, what a way to make a cousin feel good.  I did not feel very welcome, I actually almost left because that was so mean.  I don't go places and insult people but I guess I am fair game.  I almost got in an argument with a cousin because she said if she could she would come and take my Japanese maple out of my yard and put it in hers, I said no you wouldn't, she said yes she would.  Well, really?  It is my plant in my house and my brother Richard planted it for my mother.  I was like, oh my, just go to someone's house and steal a plant.  Fortunately, she has emphatically said she is not coming back to my house, so I am hoping I am safe.  Apparently, when she was cleaning out Mom's room (they were supposed to only sort, not get rid of - yeah, many tears over that one) she became ill.  She pretty much said my house is full of mold and something like that.  I pointed out that there is no mold in my house.  I know there isn't, I had it checked and we are all clean from mold.  My mom waterproofed the family room 10 years ago and it is still going strong so no dampness and no mold.

I am not sure why it is okay for people to hurt my feelings when I get reminded not to hurt other peoples feelings (I do NOT go around insulting and hurting people's feelings either).  I guess I just don't matter to certain members of the family.  If I have to worry about their feelings, they should worry about mine.  I am glad I will not be seeing them for Easter, I am going to Kathy's parents house with Kathy.  It was nice to see my Uncle and his wife and a couple of cousins I haven't seen in a really long time, but the insults from 1 cousin and 1 brother were rather mean and I didn't need that.  I don't know if I will go to too many family functions for a while.  It will depend on who is there.  I do like seeing the ones who are nice to me, but I can do without the argument and the insults.  I am not a spoiled brat nor am I goody two shoes.  Do I like to do what is right?  Well, yes, but you don't need to insult me because I am not a rule breaker or a law breaker.  I didn't find it funny at all.

I am heading back to bed again soon because I am so tired today.  I hope tomorrow is a better day.

Party Day

Today was my and my cousin, Darrin's birthday party.  It was fun.  I still have trouble at family functions because Mom isn't with me.  I miss her even more when we are all together because she should be with us. She was the matriarch, now Tillie is.  Wilbert was there.  He doesn't look like he is really doing too well.  He sat at the kitchen table most of the time.  He did come into the living room for a bit right before he left.  Tillie left before he did because, I guess, they have trouble getting him out the door when she is there so this is the best way to do it.  Andrew was there too along with many cousins.  My cousin, Kenny, his wife, Vicki, and their son, Kyle were there too.  I haven't seen Kyle since he was a little boy.  Kyle and I are now facebook friends.  He is very interested in the family tree.  Tillie and Wilbert have done a lot of work on the McAgy family tree.  Mom was interested too, I was at one time, but right now, I am just not into anything.  Maybe in the future I will be.  Kyle did comment that when he got home he was going to have to draw a family tree to see where everyone belongs.  I can imagine that it would be confusing.  It is difficult when you are meeting one side of the family you have never seen before.  I know them all, so it isn't an issue to me.  My Uncle John, his wife, Michelle, and their son, Jayson were there too.  They just got back from Jamaica last week.  Michelle's niece was getting married there.  They had a great time.

Kayla and Amanda had their lessons this morning before I went to the party.  Both are getting ready for the Spring Concert.  Kayla has decided she is only singing one song.  I said that was perfectly okay.  Amanda is singing one with Katie and then she is singing one by herself.  Kayla is singing one with Amanda.  All in all, I think it will go well.

I have a bit more of a headache today.  I got it at the party near the end.  I left before most everyone did since I had a long drive to go.  It was 1 3/4 hours away and about 1/4 tank of gas.  I do hope that my head goes back to its normal headache.  Somedays I don't even notice the normal headache all day, but tonight's is pretty bad.  I am also very tired.  Driving by myself so far makes me exhausted.  I do hope to see my Uncle again soon.  I also got to spend a lot of time with my brother Andrew.  I forgot to bring the gift I found that Momma had bought in 2006 at Disney World for him.  He laughed when I told him about it.  I was so happy to find the music box that she bought me when we were in Disney.  It was in her Disney box that they saved of her stuff for me.  Momma must have bought it when we were there years ago and forgot about it.  She would buy Christmas gifts all year long and then put them away until Christmas.  Andrew wants me to get rid of all our stuff and move to London with him.  I did tell him that I do not want to move and I like our house.  He said he doesn't like our house and he doesn't miss it at all.  I guess that is good, it means he likes London, Ont., which is where he lives.  He and Angie live together now.  I am glad to see they are together.  It seemed like that just wasn't going to happen.  I was teasing Andrew about having children, and apparently, Angie wants some so oh, okay, maybe I will be an aunt again someday.  If not, that is okay.

I am very tired now.  I am definitely heading to bed early.  Charlie is supposed to be coming tomorrow to trim the bushes.  Addison was here to clean out under the bushes.  He had to earn some volunteer hours for church so he asked if he could do something with my yard.  Hey, I was all for it.  He is also going to cut the grass this summer for me again.  Thank goodness.  I would not be able to do it.  I just can't walk that well to do it.  I am thankful that Charlie is going to trim the trees in the yard, he is doing the front and the back.  The side bushes are okay, they don't need to be trimmed, I don't think.  Between the two young men, our yard will be rocking.

I do hope you had a great day too.  It was a good day despite missing Momma at the party.  I just miss her so much ALL the time.  I don't expect it to get better.