Wednesday, November 16, 2011

mid week 11-16

I went to get my blood test this afternoon.  I also hoped to get the flu shot.  They ran out of the flu shot last night and more was coming in some time today.  After 3 pokes, the nurse still could not get my blood.  That was a big time fail.  I have to go back on Friday for another try and I have to be there earlier than usual.  Ugh.  So yeah, I am so not very happy about that but I have to have the blood test so I will just deal with and and come home to take a nap when I am done.  Naps rule in this house, for me anyway.

I woke up before the alarm went off.  I think I slept pretty well last night for a change.  I was so tired last night when I went to bed that I didn't even read and I am reading a really good book right now.  I was a bit tired this afternoon so I thought I would take a nap before Allison's lesson.  She was the only lesson today. Natalie will have a make up tomorrow since she couldn't make it tonight.  Natalie is such a nice young lady.  She sings really nice too.  She was having trouble with one of the songs but I have a tape recorder that we will tape us singing it and she can borrow it to practice at home.

I was thinking about my Momma today before the doctor appointment.  It has almost been 13 months since she passed away.  I was thinking about her last few years.  In 2008, after we lost the store, she was still pretty independent and could do lots of stuff for herself.  I would not let her be by herself too long though because I was afraid she would get lost.  She liked to be with me most of the time.  She had been coming to the store with me for the last 2 1/2 years.  I didn't mind because she loved being there a lot.  After we lost the store, I was deeply upset over it.  I had worked so hard only to lose it.  I would say that for a few months, I didn't emerge from my room to often except for teaching.  Mom could get herself up in the morning and eat breakfast.  She would watch the weather channel (for some reason she loved the weather channel) and wait for me to get my lazy butt up.  We would go to Tim Horton's for lunch and have a nice time.  I would teach a few lessons during the week but mostly we hung out together.  Mom and I spent a lot of time at the movies summer of 2009.  I think we went to the movies about every week.  We saw so many good movies and a few duds.  We would also go to Olive Garden at least once a month.  Mom and I love that restaurant.  It wasn't until about November 2009 that she started being less independent.  In December 2009, I had to start gating her up the stairs because she would go out of the house looking for me and get lost.  Fortunately, I have really good neighbors and they found Mom right away and brought her back home.  Kathy was getting rid of her baby gates but she hadn't yet.  I called her to find out where to buy them and how much they might be.  She gave me her gates.  I drove to and from K-zoo in one day for those.  I was glad that I got to keep her and take care of her.  So, anyways, I was just thinking about her today a little more than usual.  The 18th is coming up and that is a day I dislike since she passed away on the 18th of October.  Some days it seems like forever ago that I last saw her and other times it feels like yesterday.  It is weird this mourning thing.  Some days I feel like I wading through mud that won't let me walk and other days, not so much mud to walk it.

I hope you are having a good day.

1 comment:

  1. It's great that you were able to look after her at home, that's so important. Hope you're ok x