Here we go again, I accidentally erased the post. I didn't mean too, but I did and of course, right after I did that, it automatically saved.
We had book club today! At first I was afraid we wouldn't but Maggie was just late, which was fine. We talked about so many things. It was wonderful! I really enjoy book club a lot. It is fun once a month getting together and chatting. I gave her the scoop on Debbie, Katie, and Aggie, as the three of them no longer can join us. I miss them, but since, outside of Debbie, I see them, I don't mind too much.
One thing that has been getting to me is Mom asking for Richard. She asks for him a lot, and I mean, a lot. When I can't produce Richard, she cries. When I tell her he is in Seattle, she cries. It is really starting to upset me. I can't help that I am not Richard. I do the best that I can do by her and at times it doesn't seem to matter to her because I am not Richard and that upsets me. Sometimes I make sarcastic comments to her like sorry I am not good enough which make her cry but usually I just ignore it. It is getting harder to ignore that. I was telling Maggie about it because Mom started to cry after she asked where Richard was this afternoon. I called Richard and asked him to call me back to talk to Mom. She can still talk a bit on the phone and I think if she hears his voice maybe she won't be so upset all the time. She spoke to Andrew on the phone on Monday and she really enjoyed it. I don't know what she remembers, what she doesn't about the phone call, but I do know she calmed down asking about him. I am hoping the same thing happens when she talks to Richard.
Anyways, I hope he calls me back this evening. Mom will really like talking to him and I am hoping she will stop asking me where he is because it is really bothering me. Maggie said when she comes back from vacation she and I will go and have a chat about it. She has some ideas. Maggie is a great help with things like that. I will have Carolyn come and sit with Mom while we go out.
I have read great posts about 9/11 and where people were when it happened. All I can say is I will never forget what happened nor will I ever not be thankful and grateful to the people who serve our country in the Armed Services. Thanks to them, we are free. So if you or a family member serve, I thank you everyday, not just today.