I have a big headache from all this. It's just joining the arm and shoulder. I know I am not supposed to get so upset because it makes me ache more, but how could I not in this situation. I just feel like nothing is going right. Should I throw the towel in and beg Richard to let Mom and I to come and live with him? I don't know. I could just scream. I feel like telling the bank, fine, take the house and everything in it. Whatever! I know Mom would be upset about it and I can't take her upset. I also have not gotten my back disability yet. It was supposed to come in August, well, it is September now. I feel very low today, lower than Monday when I had my meltdown. I don't know what to do now. As soon as I get my back disability I will be able to file for bankruptcy and then my name can go back on the bank account. It isn't like Mom can really handle money anymore. She can barely sign her own name right now. Not a good situation.
I don't know if we are going out for a scooter or not, depends on pain level. Right now it is really high. I just feel powerless right now.