We had a real estate lady here earlier to tell us how much the house is worth in this market. I just want to have an idea for when we sell it. We aren't selling anytime soon that is for sure because I am going to have a job that will keep me in it while I slowly go through it. I am not in a rush. I need time to really think about what I have, what I want, and what I need.
Yesterday, I was at Uncle John's. It was mostly a good day. I got tired and a bit of a headache at the end of the night. I am not sure why but I did. I left first because it was almost 9 pm and I needed to get going to drive home the hour and a half it takes. I didn't want to be driving with a bad headache which was on its way. Mean head.
Phoebe is coming over tonight. I can't wait to see her. I want to hear all about her new job. She just started today so I am excited for her. Also, she is going to give me information to apply for the job. I know she went it to me before, but I accidentally erased it. What was I thinking?
It is a bit of a sad day for me. It has been 4 weeks since Mom died. 5 weeks since she last spoke to me. I will always treasure the fact that the last thing she said to me and the last thing I said to her was I love you. I mean, how cool is that? How many people actually get to say that? Not many. So many that I know of regret what they say to the person they love right before they die because they don't know they are going to die. I am glad I have a beautiful memory of her saying I love you to me. I also made sure for the last few years that I told her everyday how much I loved her. Because she was losing her memory I really wanted her to remember that I loved her. She remembered that until the very end as far as I know. I would ask her, Momma do you know how much I love you? Did I tell you today how much I love you? She would sometimes say, yes, you told me, tell me again, other times she would say I don't know if you did. But I made sure that everyday I told her how much I loved her even when I was mad at her.
Phoebe and I had a great time. She made spaghetti with sausage! Yum! We watched the bucket list. Surprisingly it was funny and I wasn't sad watching it like I was afraid I would be.