It seems to be bad in the nighttime before I go to bed. I tried reading before I went to bed tonight and I started crying again. I miss her most I think at night. I have rarely, before she died, slept in the house on my own so I think that might be part of it. One month ago she was alive, dying, but alive. I don't understand why they couldn't fix this. Wouldn't a feeding tube have worked? The doctor said no, but still, shouldn't we have tried? I don't know. I just miss her most in the morning and the evening. I have way too much time on my hands.
I hope tomorrow is a better day.