Sunday, October 31, 2010

meeting for tea

I met Donna this afternoon for tea at the local borders music and book store.  It was fun.  We were there for about 2 hours before we both started getting a bit tired and had to leave.  It is nice to see her out of the house and out and about.  She had spine surgery last spring and has been recovering ever since.  She is doing pretty amazingly well.  I hope it continues for her.

Today is Halloween.  I am just not into Halloween.  I don't particularly like this holiday.  It isn't like it was when we were small.  I don't do scary very well.  I get nightmares pretty easy and so I tend to shy away from scary stuff.  Normally I would have bought candy this week and Mom would pass it out but this year I am hiding in the house, maybe taking a nap as I am so tired today.  I slept in too but I feel like I could go to sleep some more right now.  Maybe I will go and take a nap.  Hm, I think I will.  More later.

I am back.  I went and took a nap, I just couldn't stay awake anymore.  It is now trick or treating time and I am in the dining room with only the kitchen light on.  Kind of weird being in the dark, but I don't want to turn lights on and have people think I am home or passing out candy.  Kids are definitely out.  I hope no one comes to my door because I won't answer it.  Maybe I should have bought some candy, but I really don't like Halloween, that was Mom's holiday.

Thanksgiving will be next.  I am unsure on whether or not I will cook a dinner or go to someone's house for it.  I will wait and see how it goes.  Kathy thinks I can go to her parents, she is checking for me.  With Richard and I being the only family in USA, all our relatives already had their Thanksgiving earlier this month.

I have been on my own now for 2 days without someone staying the night.  Make that 3 days because Friday night I was alone too.  I think I am doing alright, not great, but okay.  Maia will be here briefly tomorrow and Tillie will be here on Tuesday.  The garage looks good and mostly empty.  My room is partly organized, not completely yet.  I have to find a box for some of the original teaching CDs.  I have a big container for most of them, but not all the new ones fit in it so I need another.  Maybe Tuesday I will go and get one.

I have to work on Calli's Christmas music.  I almost forgot all about that.  Her lesson is tomorrow and I need to arrange her Christmas piano piece because it is too hard, and make an accompaniment to her vocal piece.  Glad I thought of that now and not tomorrow.  I should have been doing this on Tuesday last week when I was home.

I am going to hang a blanket at the downstairs hallway.  I have to get some tacks so that I can hang it.  I am going to block off the downstairs so the heat stays more upstairs than downstairs.  Also, I don't use the family room right now, so I am not going to heat it.  It will help on the heating bill this winter.  Next week I am going to look at the state of my finances so I will know how long I can stay in the house without a job.  I am hoping to have a job by Christmas so that I won't have to worry about finances.  I will be calling my social worker tomorrow and I have to find my ticket to work info from disability.  Each may have a program that will help me.  It is very scary not knowing what is going to happen and I have never been in this position before, so I am a bit scared of it.  I do know that something will work out and I won't be homeless or starving.  I don't know what there is out there for disabled people as far as housing issues are and stuff like that but that is my job this week is to figure it out.  I will, I have people who will be helping me.  I need to also call Richard's friend, Dave, because he may be able to help me out to.  I will take what help I can get at this point because I am in uncharted waters so to speak.

Well, try to have a good Halloween.  I am having a better day.  I hope the weather man is wrong and the white stuff stays away for a bit longer.  I think it is time to pull out the old winter jacket.  Ugh, that time of year again!  So, stay warm and Happy Halloween!


  1. Heather,
    Thanks for stopping by, I'm so glad you did so now I can check in with you and see how you're doing.
    I completely understand why you want to hide tonight. Losing my mother was one of the hardest things I've ever gone through. One lesson I learned was to grieve, as much as I needed to and when i needed to. I found it much better than trying to act like everything was fine. It isn't and it won't be for awhile. You need to find the new you.
    I hope you have luck with the job search next week. I will be sending good thoughts and prayers your way.
    take care sweetpea...;j

  2. Hi Heather,

    I had a $$ saving idea. I know several people who have applied to power companies for assistance. They were approved and were given credit for so much $$ towards their bill. Each only had to pay a power bill for one month for the whole year. The rest was paid.

    Do you own the house or rent?

    Hope you get Callie's music ready in time. :D

  3. great idea Debbie! Thanks! I will check into it.