I have a really bad headache today. Nothing seems to touch it. I have had it for 3 days, although today is definitely worse than the other days this week. I think I am in a flare and stressing out. This bankruptcy thing has me stressed, although I did find out about the thing that was stressing me. I am going to take care of that tomorrow and copy the rest of the stuff that needs to be copied. I shall drop it off and then everything will be in and I will be relieved when it is all taken care of. I am right on schedule with that stuff, the one I created for myself. I am just stressing I think over the whole issue because I should have taken care of it when Mom was here and I didn't. I let my stuff taken a seat back because she needed my attention and when I had time (believe me I had time) I was lazy. I didn't do a thing when I should have been organizing paperwork and copying paperwork. I think she would be very disappointed I let stuff slide. I won't let that happen anymore. I will be taking care of stuff when it happens from now on. I have to call the lawyer to find out exactly what I owe, they have me done as paying something I don't remember paying, but hey, you never know!
I don't have much to do today except for the copying of papers. I think I am going to try to lay down and see if this headache will lessen. Maybe I will be able to function enough to copy the papers, right now, not happening as I don't think I could concentrate enough on copying the right ones.
I have a boring weekend ahead. I do hope I have a lesson on Saturday, I really need the distraction and the enjoyment I get from them. Right now I am bored and that is when the sadness hits the most. Memories of what I should or shouldn't have done with Mom start to go through my head. My head starts playing those what if games and I am trying not to do that. I know that is normal, but I would rather not have to deal with that and only think of good times of Mom. The grief counselor warned me about this part and I am trying not to do it.
I do hope your day is much better and more eventful (good ones, not bad) than mine. It is sunny here at least and not as cold as it was.