I am so tired today. I think I have slept through most of it. I have had a bad headache all day so for today. After Army Wives, I will be heading back to bed again. I haven't even gotten out of my pajamas yet for the day. Exhaustion just hit me this afternoon like I haven't had it in a few weeks. I got up late and then after a couple of hours, I went right back to bed.
Tomorrow I have to get up because, I get my MUGLIA GIRLS!!! I haven't seen then in 6 WEEKS! Way too long. I am excited that I get them tomorrow. I need to see my girls much more often than I get them. They just can't have lessons more than once a month but I am thankful I see them that often.
Bob will be having his lesson on Wednesday. I have my blood test that day too. Yuck, at least I haven't had one for a month.
It has been an all around yucky day for me, I think. It is a really bad missing Mom day. The short time I have been up I have been crying and missing her. I just want her with me. My friends, Rosemary and Kimberly are just starting the grieving journey and I know how much it sucks. At least they have each other and their families. I have friends and that has helped a lot but I still just want to be with my mom. That hasn't changed since she died, I don't really expect it to ever change.
I called and asked Tillie what she was doing for mother's day, she is going to Darrin's I guess. Last year she was alone so I was going to ask her to go to dinner, but I guess I will be the one alone on that horrible day. I don't look forward to that day not one bit. Maybe i will just hide that day and it will pass me by. That might be what I have to do. Last year, I took Momma to Olive Garden and we had a good time. Now she isn't here. I was going to go to her grave site, but I didn't want to go alone and Andrew isn't going so I guess I am not. It is a long drive to go by myself. It is about 2 hours away. Andrew is graduating on the 17th of June as of right now. It is on a Friday, which is kind of strange but okay, I will just reschedule lessons for that day. As it gets closer I will check the date again with him. These dates have been to change. I do know he is planning some sort of party too but I don't know much about that either.
I hope your day is better than mine. Army Wives is on now so I am going to watch it.