I didn't have any lessons today so I read some after I went and got some Chipotle's for dinner. Since I woke up super late I figured I would have a bigger meal now and a smaller meal later around 7 or 8 or so. I have one lesson tomorrow so that is wonderful! I love lessons and I really think that is the only time I feel like I am achieving something. I do think that some other times when I am with friends or doing something at home other than watching TV or reading but often, I feel like I am in a rut and can't get out. It isn't always like that, but often enough to bother me. I think it is because I am still trying to find the new me without Mom. When I had Mom here, I had a purpose and that was taking good care of her, which mostly I did. Now my purpose is gone and I don't know what my purpose is, outside of teaching that is. I am thankful I have more students now that I have had in the last few years. It is very helpful and fun. I simply love all my students. I don't have one that is forced to play so that is a wonderful thing. I have had a few in the past, and oh, my that was the hardest teaching ever. Can you imagine trying to teach a child music to a child who really could care less about whether they play it right or not? Believe me, I think I would rather bang my head against a wall than to do that again. Fortunately, all my younger students play because they want to learn. Thank God for that!
I don't have any plans for the rest of the evening except to relax and watch TV. I am exhausted again and I have only been up for about 4 hours. I probably will go to bed at the regular time because I will only toss and turn if I go early. I can't wait for the lesson tomorrow. I am debating which new song to give him. I am not sure.
It is a bit cooler this afternoon that it has been in the last few days. Next week is supposed to be back in the 80s so I can't wait for that. I do hope that you are cool and staying out of the heat.