Saturday, March 12, 2011

A rather quiet day

I had one lesson today, Amanda.  She was so excited because I brought out the Colors of the Wind song for her.  She really wanted to learn that one.  I am excited because I got the other copy of the book back from Samantha (2 1/2 years later) so that I could give her the song.  I have to redo the Over the Rainbow in Finale (a music program) so that it is in the right key for her.  Both my orchestrated version and the proper key version are missing.  At least I have the sheet music for it.  That is the good thing!  Thank goodness for that.  I am hoping that before I redo the song in the Finale program, I may still have it on the other computer so I am going to put up my other computer and check to see if it is on that one.  That would make my life much easier!  All I would have to do is reburn the song then instead of put every note in the finale program.  I am going to do that tomorrow.

After Amanda's lesson, I was on face book for a bit when I realized I was hungry and needed to get out of this house.  I don't always feel that way, but today I did.  I went to Tim Horton's and ate my lunch inside reading my wonderful new to me book.  I finished it while I was there.  Then I went to Barnes and Noble.  I love that store.  I got 2 new books so now I have a total of 7 books to read this week.  4 from the library, 2 from Barnes and Noble, and 1 from the used bookstore.  I love reading although I wish I had something else to do with my time too some days.  I can't believe I am going to say this, but sometimes I am even sick of reading.  I know, gasp!  I can't believe I said that, but it is true.  I really miss taking care of another person and being their caregiver.  I would do it for a job if I was healthy enough.  It was because Momma was so small that I was able to do things for her.  If she had been taller (she was 5ft 3 3/4 at healthy height and I would say she shrunk to 5 ft 2) and weighed more (she was usually around 120 pounds until the end at 84.6 pounds) then I would not have been able to help her.  Thankfully, she was at a height and weight that I could be the caregiver and keep her here at home.  God definitely saw to that.  He knew she was terrified of being alone in a nursing home so he didn't make her very big so that I would be able to take care of her.  I loved taking care of her these last few years especially the last year when she needed me so much.  She got her little sponge baths, she got her meals, her entertainment (yes, I even could entertain her at times!),  I was just able to do everything for her.  When she got further down the line, it did help to have someone come in and give her the baths.  The company we had was wonderful for that.  They brought physical therapy to her and a nurse came to see her too.  When we need hospice, they were simply wonderful, just wonderful.  I don't know how they do, they are very compassionate and caring, yet they can watch and help people who are dying and will not get any better.  I don't think I could do that, but the other things I think I could, if I had better health.  Right now, I will stick with teaching as it is the best job ever.  I would NOT give up teaching to be a caregiver, I would do both.  Teaching brings so much to my life that I just can't explain.

I think it is the down times that I miss her the most because I don't have someone always to talk to or hang out with.  Overall, I am pretty satisfied with my life despite my disabilities, but sometimes I want some more company.  I need companionship at times like I had with the little lady.  Today, just seemed more than usual.  What can I say?  We were very close especially the last 5 years when I had my store and when we lost it.  We did the store together, she even came with me to sign the papers.  We were both so excited about that.  She couldn't stop smiling and neither could I.  I miss her smiles and laughter the most.

I did speak to the younger brother, Andrew, live and in person (over the phone) today!  It was a short call as long distance is very expensive for him but I wanted to speak in person and not through email or face book.  There are times when they are not enough for me.  He is excited and getting ready to graduate with his degree.  I am so thrilled for him over that.  He will keep me posted on when the ceremony will be.  I also told him about my birthday party the family is having at my cousin Darrin's house.  Andrew said he would try to be there.

I do hope you are having a good day!  Despite the missing of Momma, it has been a pretty good day.  I would have preferred 3 lessons instead of 1 but I am thankful for the 1.

1 comment:

  1. Hi, Heather! I LOVE Barnes & Noble, too. I imagine sitting there with my favorite author, Janet Evanovich, sipping a fancy coffee and talking about books. Goofy, I know! I'm such a sap! I love reading too!

    Thank you for visiting my blog and all your encouraging words. I appreciate the support. Thank you for wishing Jack well. :0)

    Big Hugs,